A Loner's Diary

2008-12-04T02:51:00.000-08:00

For all of you who have been dropping by my blog frequently only to be disappointed by the lack of new material, allow me to thank you by writing a new post (:

Only a couple of months have passed since my last post, but much has happened during this time. Much of it happened during work and some out. Want to know what i did during work? Ask me personally. After which i will have to kill you. Kidding. Damn. writing isnt easy especially after this short hiatus. Hate it when i have all these ideas for prose only to be blank the moment my fingers touch the keyboard. Sentance structuring is failing and most of vocab have gone down the drain too. Whee... Uni here i come. Could'nt be more prepared... Right. anyhow, to go into detail about what happened in the past 2 months(?) would be pure suicide for both us, the writer and the reader. However, some events cannot be ignored or easily forgotten.

As such, i will try my best to document some events to the best of my ability.

Starting from my previous post, i did travel to the far, distant and exotic island of.... Bintan. Hey. it might seem like a 'so-close-might-as-well-don't-go" kinda trip but what i saw and experienced there was more than worth the money i paid. I FRIGGIN SAW BABY TURTLES HATCH AND SWIM TO THE OCEAN. Hah. beat that. Touring 2k per night villas was also quite the eye opener. Running along the long coastline with the ocean lapping beside your feet, the sand crunching beneath your shoes and the sun beating down on your body with no one in sight within a 400m radius. It's times like these i replay in my head again and again to remind myself whats worth living for. Seriously even tho its a 2 day 1 night event, i strongly encourage the average city dweller to give it a go. You will be pleasantly surprised.

What else... hm.. OH yes. BERNICE JIE is BACK! Been quite a while since i saw her. And contary to her belief, no. i don't think you erm, 'grew' jie. Looking forward to more makan / talk sessions with you (: If you need someone to talk to at 3am in the morning, im always ready by the phone. So long you can speak whale. Eagerly awaiting the 13th and the 26th =]

This month's gonna be real busy too. Lots of events planned and some still in the planning stages. 26th for example, is gonna be quite the BBQ. Now if it rains, then it *quotes from a multi lingual friend who has many multi racial friends, some more white than others :P* "It sucks to be us" I do have a 15 person slot, interested parties do RSVP tho Bern jie has already booked 8 ~ 9 Slots. haha.

29. Patience for God's wonderful and impeccable timing. (:

Can't wait for the bbq this sat. i need good food and company. Perfect for a long and tiring week.

Shit. i need to compile my wishlist! 9 December coming up! Damn! mum's birthday on the 8th. Wahhhh... the sudden influx of activites has put my brain on overload.

*random* Staring at the large gash on my ass now. It's bloody and i cant wait for it to form a scab so i can pick at it (:

Shit. I just found out that my leave on 22 and 23 have been axed.

2008-10-01T09:53:00.001-07:00

mm.. Slight feeling of lost overshadowing life in general now. Why? beats me. nothing seems to be going right. Well, not everything, but some aspects which i thought i had always done well. Feels weird haing to come to terms that your not what you used to be. And strangely enough, if it wasn't for the scheduled, albeit mundane Army life that i have to serve, i think ill be roaming the streets asking the most cliche'd of questions. "What on earth am i here for?" Finding direction has really never been so hard. So many questions, the ever elusive rare answers and.. Damn it, the feeling of not knowing what to do at this point of life. I think that statement pretty much sums up how im feeling. I've reached a plateau where life just doesnt seem to be going anywhere. Feels like a long stretch of road that i've gotta keep running. And very soon, i'll lose sight of what im running for. Everyday the same as yesterday, Every week the same as the one before. Every month a repetition. man. Time to break the damn monotomy. Time to go for the Gusto. But by doing what? The vicious cycle of questions prevail. Sigh, If life's a map, who has a God damn compass i can borrow?

Ah well, enough of ranting. Other than that, life's been pretty much standard. My work in The Office never seems to end, and in the near future, its only gonna get worse. BUT! its the last final push before I ORD. 3 Magically letters that never seem so well, magical. And oh, did i mention that im leaving overseas for a short trip tml? No? ah well, now you know. :P Just a short retreat, be back by friday.

*random* I need to get back to cooking. ASAP.

2008-08-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

Friggin bored, So i shall blog! Whoa that actually rhymed. OH well, look slike its a night of random ramblings. The following will have no sequence whatsoever and is just typed as fast as my brain can churn them out.

Life in general is getting better now i guess. army life is flashing before my eyes, and that means its nothing but great. Posted to an office job with a red beret. LoL its doesnt really get any better with that. But with paper work comes responsibility and ill be honest and say that i have screwed up more than once. However, with his grace, everything came out fine. His planning prevails in every aspect. Funny how tough times really show you his impecable planning for every moment in your life. Maybe its cause only the sick need a doctor. And if this is the way he cares for me, i want to be sick forever. LoL.

Funny, but im noticing how everything is slowly changing around me. Life now is definitely not the same a year back. Its drastic, the amount of changes that have taken place within this short span of a year. Has army really have that kinda effect on a person? I find myself not being nervous anymore about making phone calls to strangers, i realise the importance of small talk and continue to practice it, and small minute details of me are being noticed by myself. People say i've changed. Couldnt agree more. And isnt that good? Who wants to remain stagnant? There's a saying that change is the only constant, so why are people so surprised when people change? Circumstance allows it, and without change, how does one improve oneself? Ah, whatever. In any case, i've definitely changed. I know some negative and some positive but luckily for me, i still have a handful of friends who bother to point it out. Feeling more confident about myself, thinking more positively, i've really never felt this good about myself in recent times. *random* i love mambo. ^^V If you want to go mambo on wed, im up for it :D

Anyone, im glad seeing how some of my friends have been maturing. Wouldnt say names, but i think even they themselves know who they are. Rather glad seeing them enjoying life now. Y'all have truly grown, both socially and spiritually.

Argh! 21km this sunday. Dunno how sia. 16km i already run until i have to squeeze my pants dry before can continue running -.- Boss still say want to run stan. Chart. at the end of the year @__@

Damn. What does it take to go back in time.. To the venue. Not the size Damn it.

2008-07-12T02:18:00.000-07:00

well, time for an update i guess. Back from brunei, and done with the 72km, which ill safely say ill rather do brunei again rather than walk that accursed 72km. even tho its only 23 hrs, yes thats how long we took, each kilometer was agonising after the 28km mark. i even know of people who cried the moment we reached back the camp's gate. fighting with urself the whole night with little or no sleep, telling urself to carry on despite the blisters, the abrasion and sore legs, its little wonder they say the 72km is more of a mental challenge than anything else. I can't agree more.

Discussing what i've done in brunei is strictly outta the question, so ill leave such conversations to face to face encounters. In short, i'm now officially a commando, (it feels weird just saying it) finally being able to don the red beret. And damn does it feel different. A little splash of red does wonders for the eyes no? And as much as ppl can say, "its just a red beret, i can buy it anywhere for 7 bucks." my reply to you would be to go fuck yourself. (:

There's a reason why 213 started out that journey and only 170 made it to that parade square on 26 June 2008. After stringent training and 11 months of hard training, Only a rare breed are crazy enough to do all that is required of a commando. So until the day one of you lucky few are able to count yourself among our ranks, i can safely say that you have no idea what we've been thru. so don't be jealous, but instead be proud that you know someone of the red beret fraternity, cos every single one of us will fight for our pride....Literally. ^^V

Damn. thats one egoistical post no? Rant all you want, but this is safely said the proudest acheivement I have attatined the entire year. There's nothing but pure adrenaline and pride that swells inside you to the point of rupture when you don the beret in front of your parents and friends seated at the podium. You know those moments that last forever? Those that you never forget and always look back to remind urself that you've REALLY accomplished something in your life? That day was One of em'.

For Honour & Glory!

2008-06-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

Well, time for me to fly off yet again. Brunei, Here i come. The culmulation of months has boiled down to this. One month of crazy training, terrain and tired-ness. Will we make or break? Time will tell. Kit bag all inspected and sent, equipment check all done, the only thing left to do is to count the hours down slowly till we meet in the airport tml night at 2359. After that, well, Good luck to all of us.

I cant discuss much about what i'm training online as the Military security department would probably be knocking on my door pretty soon if i were to do that. But all i know is that its not going to be an easy month training. and to top it off, after returning on the 25 in the wee hours of the morning, we'e going through our rite-of-passage on the 26th of June. The 72km march. No company, to my knowledge has done the 72km immediately after returning from brunei, so i do suppose its going to be a crazy test of endurance for us. Oh well, This IS something we all have been preparing for for the past 10 months ever since we enlisted. Besides, what doesnt kill you, merely makes you stronger. Right?

Oh, Red beret presntation on the 27th June 2008. All are invited to Hendon Camp. :)

On a totally other note altogether, Have i changed for the worse? Am i committing the same atrocities that i had before sub-conciously? Have i deserted those who cared for me so dearly in exchange for a fantasy that may burst with the slightest touch? Have i become such a horrible friend in the twinkling of an eye? Why did i neglect those closest to me? Would i have even realised the possibility that they might have left me forever without me knowing it? Scary. But thank God for those who stood up and corrected me. I'll make it up to you. All of you. I promise.

What The Hell Am i Doing Here?

Sorry Peeps. You Know Who You Are.

2008-04-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

Is there anything in the world that is as good as a plate of properly made soba? I'm not selling the dish just to let you know. im merely lamenting on how i forgot to have it before i left on my one month trip to the land of a thousand smiles..... and a million trannies. Well, thats just my little way of telling you that I'M BACK. Seems quite fast doesnt it? one month gone in the twinkling of an eye. Hoping the next 13 months will pass just as soon. heh. There again, the paradox of time strikes another blow. 9 months since i enlisted. Quite fast yeah? 9 months. a few more months and it;ll be a year since i enlisted. Never expected time to fly this fast. I can only hope it'll fly faster. heh.

Well, thailand was fun. In a sense. A Real Cynical sense. Ever experienced 42 degree weather? no? well, theres your chance. 5 minutes in that heat and its almost guarenteed to leave you with a sweat soaked shirt and a splitting headache. Ever lied on your bed sweating a mere 15 mins after BATHING? Well, Thailands your chance. That is if you travel with the SAF of course. In any case, that one month abroad was quite an experience if u ask me. I was able to live on my own for a month, away from most forms of creature comforts. Okay so maybe its only the air-conditioning and food i missed the most. The food in singapore, the variety also if i might add, is the strange addiciton that pulls you back and reminds you of home every time you leave it. the readily accessable food means so much only when you have 5 stores selling the same food in the canteen. But to give it credit, it wasnt half bad. It's always cha mee.. or cha peng.. 20 baht.. So you can understand when i say i dont exactly miss that place so much. Try eating that for a month and tell me if you wont go nuts. Work there was well, hectic at most times? when we were busy, we were really busy. But to give credit, when we slack, well, we'll make the sloth embarassed.

Okay so enough of complaining. What else was fun there? If any?! Well, how does going for a joyride on an UH-1H sound? Damn Cool of course! considering that they're phased out in singapore, Any of you people reading this probably wouldnt even get a chance to ride in it in the near future. Hearing the whup whup of the rotors as the chopper flares into the LZ, it brings me back to my childhood memories of wanting to ride in a chopper. or rather, THE chopper. UH-1H. Workhorse of the vietnam war. Just stepping into it is history in the making. Flight of the valkyries by Wagner kept playing in my head. It was like being an American GI in Apocalypse Now. Riding the treetops with the mountain ranges so close you can almost touch them. Climbing so high the sight reminds me of being airborne. Only suspended Much much longer in the air. Hearing the distinctive chopping of the wind by the rotor blades switched the radio in my head to jimi hendrix's voodoo child, Bringing me to the scenes of Army rangers flying in UH-60s in Black hawk down. 2 very popular and famous scenes in the movie industry played in front of my eyes. It was a good day.

And how to complete the thailand experience better than throwing yourself outta an aircraft? a RTA C-130 to be more specific. Strangly enough when the door open, a sense of nostalgia carried by the wind hit me. Its been long. Too long since i hurled myself outta an aircraft. In short, Long airtime, Pretty good deployment with the exception of a few twists, fantastic view of the mountain ranges, the beautiful plantations and fields, very soft landing, the softest if i remembered, and very close to the meeting point. could it get any better than that?

Nope. It couldnt.

2008-02-29T07:36:00.000-08:00

Have i forgotten anything?! Did i forget to do something thats closely related to this sunny island?! Have i taken my last mouth of chicken rice before im shipped away to the exotic country of ladyboys?! Yeap. You guessed it. Thailand. For one friggin month nonetheless. Shh. Let the questions branching from that word cease. I am not obliged to say anything; If i told you anymore, i'll have to silence you. (Cliche, but as long as it puts the point across).

Well, i'm dissppearing for an entire month and spending my 21st birthday overseas for the first time in my life; and on such an important occasion. -.- Oddly enough, i dont really want anyone to find out. Army + Birthdays, lets just say its the worse combination ever since stalin decided toying with the idea of Communism. In any case, im 24hrs from an unknown, unfamiliar and totally distant part of the world. i could be in bloody pluto for all i care. Cut off from friends family and my computer for one whole month, dont blame me if i come back bursting through the airport gates like some deranged mountain hermit wondering what age of modernisation i live in. Okay so i do throw in the occasional exaggeration but heck, it makes an interesting read.

Past week has been hectic for me. So many people have been asking me out and for good reason. The only regret i have is not being able to enjoy a good soba lunch with my mum. Or the fishball noodle breakfast with my dad. Other than that, i think i met up with just about everybody else. Kudos to Jia ying for helping me organise my advanced birthday party. I knew you were up to something, but i didnt expect so many people turned up. They really touched my hearts and if u guys are readiqng this, i really appreciate your kind gestures and time. everyone from Sjay who had to rush off for rehersals half way, to poon shi who came in his uniform and yun who came over straight from work *Deep bow* And thank you Sally, Lulu and Bec for that wonderful 21st birthday card. Im staring at it as we speak and it always makes me fuzzy and warm everytime i look at the contents; knowing i have friends who actually take so much effort making somethign so exquisite for a boar like me. And how could i forget the 2 extra cards i got from 2 very thoughtful girls too?

As im writing this, im also scratching my chest. Sounds bad, and very obsence but i cant help it if the heat rash from thursday's roasting in the sentosa sun is acting it. Where's that damn calamine lotion when i need it. (Cue for sally to burst into song. Something about calamine lotion. Cant remember the exact tune but it cracks me up everytime i hear it) The singapore sun is also something to be missed. Cant seem to find the proper example for it, so i'll just leave it as that. Also, seems like i missed 'life in the making' For more information. check out Sjay's blog. Ended that day with dinner at sakae sushi with my 3 daughters and lu. Being the gentleman, i paid of course. =P Okay okay. so i sing the occasional praise.

Time flies. Thats something im gonna tell myself for the next one month. I honestly cant wait walking thru changi terminal when its finally all over. seeing my family members, my beloved friends for the first time, in a long time. All well, as long as God walks before, with and behind me. =] Slightly more than 12 hours to go and my mind is racing. How is it gonna be there? Have i left out something? Did i forget to do something? Has my absense been known thru out my circle of friends? More improtantly, 'Did i remember to take that last damn mouth of chicken rice?!'

Peace Y'all
Feb 08
FuJi

2007-12-25T05:04:00.000-08:00

Well well, merry '07 x 'mas everybody. With God's grace, i am NOT doing guard duty on this christmas eve or christmas day. Phew. haha.. You guys have no idea how close i was to doing guard on this festive day. Well, one week of leave gone just like that. Relativity really sucks in that sense. Wish i had another week just to catch up more with friends tho. Last week was one catch up after another followed by a short 4 day 3 night trip to KL. And immediately after touching down, i drove to meet jie and alvin for supper. (Thanks ah jie. Surprise me like that -___-) hahah...

KL Trip

well, i honestly didnt expect much from it, except for shopping and eating. Sunway lagoon was really a let down to be honest. After so many years of operation, i would have expected them to at least have new rides or make the old ones look more attractive. With paint peeling and rust on most, it was really a sorry sight. However, it was still relaxing none the less to take time off this sunny island and the mudane drone of NS. What was GOOD however, was the shopping and eating. I must have brought back more than souveniors if u get what i mean. Well, what am i to do. If there isnt anything to see, the only thing is to eat. Right? Anyway, i got myself a pair of timberland shoes which i was longing for quite a while. waterproof(Gore-Tex), comfy and more imptly rugged, its the perfect shoe for long walks and hikes, overseas or local. I also got myself an oakley bag. Genuine or a fake, i still cant put my thumb on it cos it just looks so friggin real.

On another note, travelling to places like KL really needs the right company. Man i missed the previous time i travelled up to genting and KL with church mates. they really make all the difference.

Sentosa

Well, i must say i was pleasantly surprised at how much it changed.. For the better in case ur wondering. With luge and sky rides, i cant wait for the resorts to be opened. Not for the casino. im not one who puts money on the roulette table. Im waiting for the theme parks. With such a pictureque environment around it, its definitely gonna be the talk to the town when its developed. Headed out to sentosa on my first day of leave, with sijia and sihan. We met at 1030 only to be delayed till 1140 cos someone had to wear long pants and shoes. hahha. no names, so take a 50-50 chance at guessing. But guess what! We only got delayed further by someone who decided to make a grand enterance at 12pm. Haha okay lah.. joking only.. Had a really great time at sentosa that day. The rain DID dampen my spirits slightly tho. (Cos i ended up paying for the tea break at sakae sushi which happened to be the place we decided to take cover from the rain. LoL.) Did i mention we rode the luge and skyride 3 times in all? Damn their marketing strategist. haha 3 rides for 16 bucks.. rather than 1 ride for 9. Went to the beach after that. Only me and sihan went into the water tho. the rest didnt want to get wet, even tho it was already raining. -.- And one of them went to the extent of kope-ing my hat.

Christmas candle light service

As mentioned above, i managed to attend last night's candle light service cos i had signal guys to cover out duty. Although it doesnt seem like much, theres just something oddly theraputic about holding a lit candle and singing carols as you watch the wax drip, droplet by droplet, forming intricate honeycomb patterns. Camwhored abit with yun and ade, i'll let the pics do the talking.

Merry X'mas '07

Whose finger spoil my shot sia...

Locked and Luge-ed

No. she did not have her finger up my nose.

All together now!
Boat 2 shot. Try and spot me.

Row Damnit!

Enjoy the pics. Merry Christmas '07

Sam'07 Signin out. Peace!

2007-11-17T03:09:00.001-08:00

The Army. Love it or hate it. Face it. You're being led by ppl dumber than urself, and somehow or another, the entire process seems to bring ur intellectual level down by 40%. Boost that to an extra 20% when you have a helemt on. Thank God commandos wear jungle caps instead. haha. Well, certainly been a while since i blogge now haven i. Been quite a while now, and if my calculations are correct, its been a cool 8 weeks since i blogged. 2 months. So, you ask. what has this hermit been up to?

190th Basic Airborne Course.

Well, you're not alive until you've taken that brave step. The step that says "Screw it. Lets do it." After drilling for 2 weeks and enjoying just abt every night out, This blogger is a certified army paratrooper. 3 jumps, 1 outta a F-50 and 2 outta a Chinook. 'How is it?' has been a question alot of people have been asking. and my honest answer is. I cant. How do you explain the shere nerve that it takes to take that leap of faith. How do you explain feeling the prop blast when it washes over you as you jump? The feeling of seeing both the aircraft and your canopy deploying as you spend a few split seconds of free fall? Or the feeling of being suspended in the air for a full one minute? Or how do you explain the anxiety that washes over you during ur final parts of your decent and the ground seems to be rushing towards you. as you brace for impact? You cant. You bloody hell Experience it. =] Poetry aside, this is one of my defining moments in life. Doing something like that doesnt just pass you so easily. It impacts you. and the thrill is pure pleasure. As Mwo Yeoggie said. "You cant buy this experience with money."

On another note however, i injured myself during my first decent. Why? Cos i was too busy enjoying the scenery. :P Forgetting to feet knee lock tight was one, but i think i forgot to bend my knees and attempted a PLF. After losing you in the mess of technical terms, i shld just cut it short and say i injured myself pretty bad. Moaning and writhing on the ground for a full minute before i could recover myself. BUT! i still got my act together and with some help from above, the sprain didnt prove too much a nuisance from completing my 2 other jumps the next day.

43rd CSBOC

During this course, i had more or less tried to carry on the family tradition by involving myself with the sea( Dad was in the navy see.) Commando Small Boat Operator Course. Sounds very sophisticated right. Couldnt be further from the truth. But i still had fun nonetheless. In short, Think riding the waves all around Singapore in either a Zodiac or an Assault boat, navigating, beaching and anchoring, day and night with a 40hp OBM (Outboard motor). Oh did i mention? We always had picnics on our private yacht. :]

Well demo course starts this monday. And its gonna be 2 weeks a nee soon camp. Till then, ill entertain you with some old pics i salvaged outta my old camera Hp.

Holy Cow right?!

PS: You can take my leave away, But You will never take away my freedom! Tally ho!

2007-09-13T10:04:00.000-07:00

Well, 8 weeks has passed. Feels different? haha.. Feels like time has passed rather fast actually. Looking back, its sure alot of shit that i've gone thru, but an extremely enjoyable BMT. Never thought ill be able to do alot of things when i first entered and now that i POP (Ya... POP Lo), Well, they dont seem that impossible do they? haha.. I've cleared my 1.5km SOC in 9 min 35 sec and attained a Silver with a 2.4 timing of 10.29 something i never thought ill be able to do.. (FYI i never was able to break the 12 minute barrier before i enlisted)

Field camp over, it taught me never to take alot of things for granted. Never take the TOILET FLUSH for granted. Im not going to recount of how i even took a crap in the field. Hot food, showers, and handphones all the basic commodities in the civillian world mean SO much out there in the jungle of tekong. With Iron solider ( think a 4km route with stations to complete in between and its all timed) and Ultimate detachment(Think stations to complete as a detachment and ending with a 9km route with FBO AND timed) challenge under my belt, theres really a breakthrough in the limitations that i've placed in myself. For once, and this is gonna sound so cliche, Impossible is nothing.

Had my POP just after my 24km route and surprisingly, it was not all that difficult. As OC, we DID come back to camp with a smile albeit with sore feet. And not a blister formed. Guess those toe socks did the trick. Feels good wearing the jungle hat. gonna change my call sign tho. Fuji just seems way too small.

And for those interested, I'm heading to Airborne course! After that, its demo/boatman for me =] Guess i'm gonna blow some shit up. haha. :D

2007-08-09T00:39:00.001-07:00

Wooo been close to a month since i posted now right? Well, national day today and that means one thing doesnt it? BOOK OUT! but, to burst my own bubble that means booking IN tonight.. haha.. its been a fruitful 4 weeks, well, close to 4 weeks and so much has happened that i dont think i even want to blog it down. i HAVE tho, been keeping a personal diary detailing each days events, albeit with a few days of lapses when im just too tired to carry even a pen. But briefly, ill just say that im doing things i cant possibly imagine. Im pushing myself to my limits and beyond and never expected to do the things i've done. Physical limitations is nonsense. It the continuing pushing factor that counts. Pain is a lie. It's merely weakness leaving the body. and Come to think of it, it actually reaches the point of enjoyment. Sick isnt it? You feel most alive when ur body is aching everywhere. All the nerves light up like a christmas tree and ur feeling things u never thought possible. I'm counting 7 blisters on my right foot alone which accumulate from my route marches. Damn those dreaded route marches. more imptly, damn that field pack. Even tho its just 4 weeks, i got a rough idea of how im gonna complete these two years. It's gonna be one defining moment after the other. Next up, 8 day field camp. wooooo~ 6 days w/o bathing and being temporal neighbours with ants, insects and just abt everything u can think of that goes crunch.

Sam ~07

2007-07-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

Well now, you don't think this avid blogger is going down before one last swan show right? Right you are. I'm hours away from enlisting and still not sleeping. ahha.. Well, who can eh. hehe.

'Are you prepared?' Too many people have been asking me that question. Can anyone be ready for the unknown that lies ahead? YES! With God as my wingman, Everything is possible inside there. Much thanks to Anthony and his cell for praying over me. Much MUCH thanks to all those out there who are constantly praying over me thru this two weeks. Your prayers, WILL sustain me. Don't just pray for my welfare, but pray i'll be a changed man when i come out. Pray i'll be a MAN. hahaha..

Take care peeps. Jesus is your everything. Just as He is my everything inside there. =) With His rod and his staff( staff and staff of angels hehe) I'll be fine. I'll be TRANSFORMED from glory to glory. =]

2007-07-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

Well, it seems like the time has come for me to serve my nation. Anticipation setting in, nervous-ness and excitement too, albeit healthy doses. The past two weeks had been fun. Meeting up with friends and many of them taking the initiative to ask me out to celebrate my precious few days as a civillian was very very precious to me. Guys, you rock man. Really. And to those who wanted to jio me out but couldnt cos of my packed schedule, well, just chill guys & gals, ur good intentions are not forgotten =] Just keep me in ur prayers and i'll be more than grateful. =D

Anyone who HASNT watched Transformers, PLEASE GO CATCH IT! Call it childhood nostalgia if u want, but seeing optimus prime transformed again kinda put the chill back in the word Cool. haha. Plot was rather okay. i wouldnt say it was all bad, neither would i say it was all good, but the action scenes are MARVELLOUS. No show has gripped me on the edge of my seat so intensely before. Michael Bay can Really blow shit up. haha.. From the ending, sequels are a definite possibility, and i read somewhere that two are planned in the making. Woo Hoo! And Thank you SO much aidah for treating me to the movie. I hoped you *doubly* enjoyed it as much as i did. haha.

Had a gathering sunday night with church mates. Kinda like a final dinner to bid me a fond farewell for the next two weeks? haha.. had lotsa fun with the camera and the face warp function. Pity i didnt save any of them. then i could have held those vain girls at ransom. Muahahaha.. =P jk jk.. Don't stone me just yet. Food at lao beijing was great too. Much better than the standard at Novena square, which i personally felt has dropped in standard. Food last sunday was better tho. The buffet at sakura was really generous and abundant, altho sacrificing in extravagence to compensate its low cost. But no complaints from this foody here. Qudos to Shijia's mum who remembered that there was a Sakura in the town area, else, we would be travelling to some place where *i quote chenlu* 'the birds dont lay eggs'. hehe..

Well, today was rather well spent. I can finally say that i have hiked from MACRITCHIE all the way to the top of the SUMMIT of BUKIT TIMAH. And outta all the hikes i've done, THIS! is the worse ever. Even tho we started at mactrichie and not my house, the finall kilometer up the damn hill was horrid. nearing the top i swear my heart was trying to hammer itself outta my ribcage to give me an earful on the poor living conditions it gotta put up with. the slopes were inclined at ridiculous angles and hiking up them was nothing short of labourious. But! I still managed to get up the top. albeit with much help and encouragement from yaz. =] Getting down was also a pain.. i felt that if either of took a wrong step, we'll tumble right down. Yes it was That Steep. And bro! PLEASE! No running up the damn slope!

So Much To Look Forward To. So Much To Leave Behind.

DO NOT DISTURB THE SLEEPING COW. =P

2007-06-25T07:42:00.000-07:00

It's time! iiiiiiiiiiiT's Time! iTTTTTT's TiiiiiiiiiiiME! Right enough of that. Time for another monthly update. Second last update before i'm in the green so Pay Close Attention Solider! (Ruh-ight)

Hui Yun's Birthday Surprise!(?)

The group of us celebrated yun's birthday on June 14th at Bishan's Cafe Cartel. Had a real good time eating and making merry. Pity on the drinking part tho.. hehe.. Yun! You're 18 and have now reached the legal limit. *hint hint* hehe.. Surprised her with a cake and ended up taking lotsa pics. This may sound a tad late, but Happy birthday girl! Blessed 18th and may this marking bring changes in your life. And if u dont need the book, just pass it to someone else who needs it.. haha.. TELL ME NEXT TIME YOU RECOVER SOMETHING YOU LOST KZ?! -.- hehe.. Looking forward to our next bible study session... before i go in camp. ahha.. =D

May you carry the sweet innocence into your 19th year of life. Remember to trust in the Lord and seek His kingdom everyday above all else. =D

Macritchie Trail Hike ~07

Well, i've done this hike 3 times prior to this, and it doesnt fail to amaze me everytime i go back. But there's something about Aidah i tell you. Three times i bring ppl and it doesnt rain. But when i bring her, It Rains. -.- (Dont *bish* me just yet Aidah =P) But thats the magical thing. It Rained.

The hike started out pretty normally, although the monkeys seem to have packed off to somewhere cooler for the summer. Did'nt see a single monkey till we were very close to the tree top walk. While walking the plank, We noticed the skies darkening pretty badly. Thats when we decided to pick up the pace. We managed to beat the clouds to the top of jelatong tower, althought they seemed hot on our tails. We were relaxing by the river side with the cool winds and enjoying the biscuits when the clouds decided we had enough fun and decided to unleash their bladders on us -.- We reached the golf course before we took the full brunt of it. We were completely drenched from head to toe, with the wind howling (No joke this. Really howling like an animal)

Next came the mad dash thru the jungle. With the rain beating down of us, and my vision blurred with the incessant dripping of rain down from the bill of my cap, we had to navigate trecherous terrain which was now marred with mud and mini rapids that torrent down the middle of our path. We practically had to dance thru all the obstacles, leaping from one foot hold to the other. Its by God's grace we didnt slip and land with any injury. And what happened next, was entirely by God's grace too =]

When we reached the 2km homestretch, the rain seemed to have diminished in ferocity and parted us with a gift for our eyes. What it is, Well, i wouldnt say. Go out there, pray that it rains and hike it out =D All i gotta say is, Aidah, you're one VERY lucky girl. haha.. The odds of that happening are so slim, that winning the lottery is easier. (Okay, so MAYBE im exaggerating)

Well, hiking again pretty soon. got 3 hikes lined up, and im so looking forward to them. =]

Jie! before i forget, good luck for your studies there. glad to see that everything is working fine. Hope ur enjoying urself and when i say i miss ya, i think i speak for the rest of us back here in SG. =D

2007-06-06T22:53:00.000-07:00

This is my 90th post and i cant believing im actually typing this during work. But shhh iight?! hahaha. Well, pretty much a normal week, with the exception for the batam trip, and a good dinner cum chatting (albeit) drnking session late at my house last night.

Went to batam for the choir retreat and although we were spoilt with fantastic scenery and crisp ocean breeze, the place was very much built on stilts and bits and pieces were crumbling; the experience of hearing the ocean waves at night crash into the pillars of ur room is something you dont tend forget easily.Training was pretty good, although i thought the basics was unnecessary. The girls went for jacuzzi treatment followed by full body scrubs, while the guys just stayed in their rooms to nua. Talk about knowing how to enjoy life. -.- Well, at least we were'nt the ones in the end who had to feel the burn in our pockets :P

Left the next day (2D1N nia) after heading to the city for a quick lunch at their local branch of seoul garden. My heart goes out to the super short one hour of eating. I spend two and half hours there on an average. Minimal. That left me one hour to search every nook and cranary of the shopping centre for something tangible to bring back. Surprisingly, for a place with numerous shops, i found nothing. prices were just a few dollars different from singapore, and call me a national-ist, but i just dont trust the quality there. So i improvised. Teh bottle! haha.. For those who don't know what they are, its a popular local tea drink that doesnt sell in Singapore. Im thinking cos its a rather acquired taste. :)

Boat ride back to SG was uneventful, but seeing those 3 Turbo charged V12(?) engines displace water from the stern was oddly therapeutic. Call me nuts, but so there. And poor Kevin had to wait 2 and half hours just to clear immigration. No.. he didnt try to smuggle back an indonesian wife nor was he trafficking anything lethal. The queue for non-singaporeans was just plain bloody long. If any corporation was applying for the worst process management award, the Singapore Harbour Authorities would surely be a contender. For a country which is trying it's best to draw in foreign talent, this is sure as hell an impressive way to welcome them.

Will blog about sunday's working experience soon. Brain's creative juices seems to be too saturated for use at the moment. Till then, ill leave you with the better results of 2 day's worth of snapping :)

2007-05-28T08:09:00.000-07:00

Okay. time for another entry. Lots to blog, no idea where to start. *Starts Cramming*

Grad Day

Well, May '07 is finally here, and Graduate i have. Memories will surely stick onto me for a pretty long time. I treasure the bonds formed and look forward to maintaing them in the years to come. Pretty 'cool' wearing the robe.. First batch in Polytechnic's history seh. I suppose it must account for something. haha. And damn. I make myself a promise that in my next instituion of study, im gonna make sure i do my best to get honours. Why? Cos the ppl who grad with merit GET BETTER FOOD AT THE RECEPTION! Basket right... Did i mention they have a private air-conditioned function room where they rub shoulders with lecturers, while the rest of us rubs shoulders in the sweltering heat outdoors with well, Each other -.- Don't get me wrong tho. I'm not jealous or anything.. I'm just itching to know how it feels like to Not be just another name on a long list of people. =]

Work

Well, works turning out fine. I suppose. Altho i do long for a whole day spent in bed. hahah. Don't we all? I'm so groggy and zoned out in the morning, that i look like i just woke up. (like duh =D) My standing hair in the morning doesnt exactly help too haha.. Its only after i come back from breakfast that my day slowly starts to brighten up. Quotations, packing, retrieving and organsing. Pretty much the same stuff. I need something to spring up and break the monotomy. -.- Thats why i needa head to India! Right i see a few of you are lost. Two words to aid. Business. Trip. Would'nt say more.

NUS indoor coming soon man. i couldnt have choosen a better time to crank up my poundage... Sigh. Thank Goodness im stopping work soon so ill have relatively sufficient time to train. My Rachel is starting to get pretty wild in my hands. Gotta tame her.

Catched Spiderman 3 with Aidah and Pirates with Jie and Yaz. Good shows? Definitely. A tad long for both tho. Hope the third installment for Shrek wouldnt be as draggy. And can i use this opprtunity to say that i watched Pirates of the Carribean: At World's end twice? So what ur thinking. Well, My first time watching Anything twice. This would probably go down in the records book of my life. hahhaha...

Went shoe shopping with aidah last week. Man. i didnt expect myself to be semi flatfoot. Tempted to buy that aasics running shoes.. Drooling and contemplating. haha.. Maybe After i get my may's pay hehe. I'm not one to spend blindly and on impulse aye?

Had a real good time this saturday. Headed to velocity for ice cream courtesy of Sio (for both ice cream and ride home =]) If ur reading this, Thanks alot dude! Really glad to be able to acquainted with ya, albeit through Bernice. =) And man. Jie's departure date is on 12 June. =[ Thats like barely half a month left on this sunny island. Gotta jio her out for coffee/chill session asap. hahaha.

Well, that just about wraps up this one. Finally, CONGRATULATIONS to my beloved daughter Hui Yun! Looking at what you went thru and how you turned out, i only got one word. Blessed. Blessed and STILL being blessed. Hope you'll use this experience as a testimony to how Great our God is. =] And stop terrorising the kids into taking pictures with you la! hahahha... Oh yes. I pray God will show you which door to take in due time =]

2007-05-07T07:56:00.000-07:00

Well, yes. i Have time now, and i WILL blog about fish.. balls.. haha.. Okay. so they're suppose to be together but what the heck, i practice free speech(words) on my blog.

Fishball Noodles. This is MY favourite spot for fishball noodles. THE place. Definitive. Firstly the food is just so bloody good that it ranks and in fact rivals Soba from Paragon on my list of ultimate comfort food. Yes. Its THAT tantalising and those who know me well enuff know how much i like the soba there.

Let me elaborate on how mesmerising this place is. Just the mere thought of having this bowl of fishball noodles in the morning springs me outta bed every tuesday. And you KNOW how hard it is to pry me outta bed even with a crowbar and a marching band to go with it. So! Allow me to tease u just a teeny bit.

Doesnt seem like much right? now see it transform before ur very eyes.....

No. its not chilli. Althought i must say the chilli there is way up there. Its tomato sauce by the way.

What i like about this stall, is Its owner. The guy is just passionate about the food he creates. Everything from the ingrediants to customer feedback, his merticulous-ness just impressed me. His food satisfies the stomach, but his personality and PR skills just completes the package. Just watching him craft out each bowl of noodles is just mesmerising. So much heart. And i guess thats what makes the difference between every chef arnd the world. Well, lets go on to the important part. The food itself =]

From what i know, this guy has two different kinds of chilli. A special one that he fries, and a normal watery one. The special one is of course, for his *ahem* prefered customers. =P And dont ask me. I dont know what he puts in it. But its just heavenly. The tomato sauce, the chilli and sauces he mixes together blends so well with the noodles its almost like cream. And with some chillies in light soya sauce to go with it, Man, its the reason i wake up every tuesday. (Yes. my dad and i have breakfast rituals. we have a fixed place to go every week. In fact, every since work, i look foward to breakfast at 10.10am wahhahaha)

The soup that has lettuce, fishballs, ba chor(minced meat) and fishcake, just completes the meal. Its the perfect partner for the noodles. noodles too dry? Spill some over onto it. Washing ur palate? Nothing else cleans it better. (Well, okay, Teh, the quintessential morning boost does a pretty good job too) Here's a lil smth to whet ur appetite.

How to get there? Now thats a tough one. It's somewhere along racecourse road. In one of the shophouses. Not easy to find i have to admit.

Thats all i can provide honestly.. ahha.. If u want, give me a buzz ill be more than happy to bring u there. =]

The Stall Owner Working His Magic

Dad having an animated conversation with The owner( They know each other pretty well. And he takes my dad's opinions seriously) Also, do check the stall's name for more info. i think i came across a site that has similar reviews. =]

Till the near future,

Bon Appetite!

2007-04-29T09:10:00.000-07:00

~Where do i start~

Yeap. Alotta things have happened since i last posted. and Boy do i enjoy updating each subsequent post with a super duper long essay! woot! Things im gonna be touching on this post would be.. *drum roll* NUS, work, Army and Fishball noodles! Yes It does some like a lethal combination doesnt it? Almost enough to give you a brain hamerohage. (Mmm.. i might need one soon. The Alcoholic shooter. not the actual thing. Im not that insane just yet)

NUS

After 4 days of waiting ever since other friends got their admission letters, and Almost giving up hope, i received a call from an unknown number one fine working friday. thinking it was a business call, i addressed the other party with my best business tone. The following briefly goes thru the animated conversation.

Me: Hello?

Admin: Hi! Is this Mr. Samuel Sim Zen Fang? (Yes it sounded like that)

Me: Yes. Who's this?

Admin: Oh this is *so & so* from NUS Faculty of Engineering. (cant blame me for forgetting her name. After this conversation i was more than ready to throttle the entire admin dept of NUS responsible for issuing the admission letters.)

Me: Yes*anticipation*....... What's this about?

Admin: Oh! I just want to ask if u received our letter of admission.

Me: Letter of admission? What Letter of admission?! You Mean im SUPPOSED to receive the letter of admission?!

Admin: Yes Sir! But we have alot of problems in our department and alot of the letters haven't been sent out.

Me: *Silence*

Admin: Anyway, ignore the letter about the talk on..

Me: Hang on does this mean im accepted?

Admin: Well, you gotta fill in some forms first and request for.... (I cant believe the technicality of her answer man..)

Well, thats basically the crux of it. I found out my acceptance into NUS by some administrative bueracrat. The least i expected was a congratulations.. but NOOO.. i had to instead receive an earful abt forms i had to fill up. -.- And lets not even touch about how antagonising the wait was. I'm sure there are peeps out there who can relate. =] Anyhow, Getting into NUS is nothing short of God's grace. =] He plans out the path for me, and i draw from His courage to walk it. This gift has affected my educational decision and much is yet to be seen on the final outcome. 65% chance, im gonna be seeing you buggers after NS. =]

National Service

Ah yes. I'm writing the final few lines in this chapter of life. The summary, conclusion, the end. Next chapter awaits. Where boys become men. In the green. And in Pasir Ris Camp. none the less. Weeks after the vocational assesement, MINDEF decides this nutty blogger is nutty enough for the red berets. i can almost hear them saying "That guy ah! Physically okay! Can do a fair number of pull ups. IQ test also fairly good. Good! thinking solider what we need! Mental Test did rather well. Looks like he can cope with stress ah! Interview also seems impressive. Seems like he'll make an ideal, mentally stable soldier. Now lets pack a parachute on his back and throw him outta a perfectly good aeroplane!"

For those who wish to send me off: 13 July 2007, 8am Pasir Ris Camp

I need photos to paste in my closet. Last chance to take photo of me with hair. hahaha!

Damn im tired. i'll leave the fishball to some other day. I still haven compiled the necessary photos i want. I will however, leave you with a few random pictures.

Random Pic taken on the way back from church. After MANY attempts.

I'll quote her on this. " Actions of a deprived childhood"

Posing. Failing(?) The Cut.

Spongebob's Land Cousin! The resemblence is Uncanny!

One Brain Damage later, Being On fire Brings In A Whole Different Dimension. (Camera Tricks by my fantastic Jie lar.)

2007-04-08T06:59:00.000-07:00

Holla! Yeap, im back for a post.. after a nasty bout of the flu none the less, Thanks for ur well wishes peeps, i AM fine now. *sniff* Healed By The Blood Of Jesus! Hallelujah!

Gosh.. im actually molting now.. sunburnt since last sat, and only taking effect now.. fantastic.. my skin's core drive must be running on a pentium one processor. Anyhow, This post isnt going to be about my fantastic lobster bisque coloured skin, BUT, it will touch on the subject of food! Yes mateys! You're witnessing History in the making, Hurray Hurray Hurray!

Yeap, i had wanted to reccomend food places, and heres my Very first one.

KOK KEE WANTON NOODLES

I don't suppose this local favourite needs any formal introduction, but just to expand the word count, here goes.

Wanton Noodles: Boiled egg noodles served with char siew(Roasted pork) and meat/shrimp stuffed dumplings. The 2 different kinds of wanton noodles you can find in Singapore is those that are served dry with dark soya sauce of chilli( more common), or with a heavenly stock(which this stall falls under). Usual condiments are vegetables and if ur lucky, pork lard (Don't shoot me down just yet. You silly sods have no idea the different level of taste those little things bring)

Personally, i've been eating at this store ever since i was erm.. round would be a good describtion here.

TaDA! What 4 dollars will buy you. Noodles cooked to almost perfection. Very Q and almost brings a nostalgic Al Dante feel.

Here's it's close up. Mouth watering eh..

What i like about it: The noodle blends perfectly with the sauce. Everything comes together for an ALMOST perfect harmony.

What i DONT like about it: The char siew, tho self made, doesnt have enuff fat on it. Personally, i like mine to be barbequed to give the whole dish a smoky flavour. The noodles is generous with the 4 dollar order, but condiments are given very 'giam siap'-ly

4 Dollars and 2 wanton only?! WHAT THE WANTON RIGHT?

*no the writer did not DID NOT sneaked any while u werent looking*

Anywayz, still earns from me a respectable 4/5 stars, cos that sauce is just finger er suckin' good. (I will not put myself under infringement from copyright laws)

Word of caution. Go at night. Personally had a bad experience of walking for 10 minutes to the hawker centre from my workplace in the mid-day heat only to find the store wasnt open. Twice. IF ur lucky enuff tho, be plagued by the eternal queue!

This is 2pm on a lucky afternoon. Go figure how its gonna be at night. Lavender Food court, 01-06 you cant miss it. Happy hunting! =]

2007-03-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

Ah well, seems like i have a request to update. Abide by that request i shall then.

Well, started work a week ago.. so far so good. Altho i have witnessed my very first company arguement. -.- Must say it really beats staying at home. Yes, people. Hear me. I say working beats staying at home. And i really dun understand why people say they have no time to exercise when they work. I shall prove that theory wrong! just read on.

Doing odd jobs at the office now.. not much except zapping, faxing, quoting, writing, packing, calling, retreiving, climbing, filing. You know. Typical office boy stuff. What? Yes thats right. climbing. The parts are loaded on shelves that are 5 meter high and my job is to retrieve them when its time to ship their arses to other parts of the country. Ie: when people order them lar.

When it's time to knock off, i can either head to the swimming pool thats just opp. the office or, run home. Alternating each day, i find myself in better shape that ever. =P Down with the sterotype of the pot belly towkays of the old! A new reign of balanced lifestyle Execs have dawned! okay.. im just rambling here.. English seems to be failing.. Means of communication in the office is either broken english, or hokkien cham chinese. MIX! i meant MIX not Cham. See lar! Influence becoming... stronger.. Can't.. resist.. the dark.. side..

Anyway, i must say that working has also given me more opportunities to explore food havens in singapore. Yeap. Benefits of working for someone who drives and eats his way arnd Sg. =P Will either post new posts on food sites, or thinking of co-operating a blog just for nice treats in SG. Anyone interested???

Anyway, signing out now. Catch y'all later.

2007-03-18T05:08:00.000-07:00

Woo~ Super duper long post coming up. I know i know.. once i blog, its once in a while and its always the size of a nuke bomb. anyway, gonna post pics today courtesy of all the ppl who made my 20th Birthday such an awesome, unforgettable Experience. To all those peeps out there, heres to you =]

17th March
Well, went to the club to supposedly Jam with Yaz. The moment i walked in, i saw this beautiful Guitar he was playing on. I supposed it was his and picked up the club's guitar to start out with the familiar 12 Bar blues. SURPRISE! Turned out that the guitar he was playing on was a gift from him and jie! SNEAKY! My face was stunned there for a full minute. Couldnt believe what they got me. And the handmade card from Jie simply ROCKS my world. It captures every detail of me so clearly.. haha.. All that followed by a fantastic cake by my fellow archers.. didnt see that coming either.. haha.. In case ur wondering, the cake was generously smeared over my face. Kinda like a birthday tradition. Gotta get used to it. *sigh* hahaha!

Culprits for my lovely birthday surprise!

2 Candles representing 2 Decades of Life.

Isabelle. Yes. My Beloved Guitar. I should have it Autographed by my siblings(Jie & Yaz). haha

Hey, i'm Crying.. Why? Cos i got No Guitar.. sobz =[
Now IM ROCKING! (Okay.. soon.. damn Chords are hard.)

The Magnificent hand drawn card. I look so Cute. (In real life too okay. :P)

Evening dawned, and it was time to get my NEW PHONE! K800I! First Sony Erricsson phone used by mua. and i must say, Asthetics wise, its Plain cool. Functions wise, Distinction. It's 3.2 Megapixels Camera is pure (pardon the language) orgasmic. Not to mention with 3G capabilities now, Talktime just isnt gonna be the same.. haha..

Sony erricsson Cybershot K800I

Had dinner at Olio with Jy's family. Sorta like a gathering cum celebration. Food was excellent, Service was even better. I enjoyed every single moment there. Glory be to God for such a fantastic evening of dinning, whinning and Cam Whoring.. haha.. Enuff of words! Let the pictures do the talking.

20 Candles

Family Photo. Don't need introducing.. haha

Hm.. Let's Seeeeee...

Macham Author Autograph Session Sia..

20th Portrait
Erm, yeah lets just leave that pic as is is. It's 20 on the tablet if u cant read it.

18th March

Well, the inevitable always happens and the day i walk out of teenagehood has arrived. No more Teen behind my age just twenty. Zwanzig. 20.

Many wishes from all over the country came pouring in, but mostly from church members =P haha.. im exzaggerating abt the country part. Anyway, what better way to kick start the first sunday of ur adulthood other than leading worship and ministering the word to the next generation right? Cos thats precisely what i did. Worship leading at P1 to P3.. (a lil rushed tho..) followed by teaching at P2. Feels good. I enjoy being of service to the Lord.

Many thanks to all thosewho sent their best wishes.. Jing Ming, Rebecca, Hui Ya, Hui Yun, Pris, Sihan, man, the list honestly just goes on. You know who you are. Thank You. =] Special Thanks to hui yun tho. Coffee and a cake in the morning? You really read my mind. =] And MANY MANY MANY thanks to the card you made.. not to mention the beautiful, TOUCHING message u had behind it.. wahahahha.. Thanks for ur blessings girl. =]

2 Lovely Shirts From Aidah

Cheese Cake From Yun! Coffee was Finished by Then.. haha Man. I'm so touched by this one. *Sob*

To everyone out there, You have no idea but you guys made me the way i am today. And im damn proud to say a big Giant Thank You =] *bows*

God Bless Us. Everyone.
Birthday Boy Signing out.

2007-02-23T06:57:00.000-08:00

Your faithful love
has always been there for me
The greatest love that i have ever known
What can i give to you
For all You've given to me
You gave it all
And You are all i need

Pre-chorus:
You are my king,
You are my God
Praises I bring
Come from my heart

Chorus:
This is for You
For all You've done for me
and I wanted to show You
How much You mean
My God,
my God

My God by Hillsongs United. Just happened to be clicking onto it in windows media player. Throat not feeling that well.. sore after eating all those new year goodies.. haha.. but i shall say i AM HEALED! Recent events have brought me to re-evaluate alot of things. Rank of importance have shifted. *God is still number 1* Even before i turned 20, life has reared its head and is heading for a different course altogether already. Conversations have changed.. They arent abt material stuff anymore.. Friends are talking abt boy/girl relationships.. about how many kids they want to have in the future. You get the idea. Return me to the time when we were kids and didn't have to worry about these. Hey, the kingdom of God belongs to Children like these no?

I Thank God for all He's done for me. Less than a month to my twentieth, I really got Him to thank only. His grace is always present at every juncture of my life. When i needed help, He was more willing to answer than i was to ask. The almighty God who created the world, and breathed life into everything, someone so great so mighty, so strong, willing to come by my side to guide me and whisper advice in my ear; willing to come down to my filthy state and stay with me, hug me even when im unclean, kiss me even tho im unfaithful. Truly only his Grace brings the wayward back.

It just came to my mind.. on this 20th b'day its gonna be a year since i surrendered my life to God.. When i said "I can't take my way anymore. Let's see what you got in stored for me instead" Can i say i changed? Definitely. It was the most important decision i made in my life. To submit my life to God. Praise Jesus i was born into a Christian family. Was it smooth? No. Temptation still stood in the way. Distractions constantly arose. At times i found myself straying away from Him. Did i sin? Of course. What's the difference? The Peace. Even through trials and difficulties, the inner peace was still there. Thank God for Pastor Prince and the other pastors from New creation Church. It's the peace of God that made the difference. The peace that Jesus had when he said "Peace! Be still!" to the storm. The same peace he left us when he said "MY Peace I Leave With You."

*John 14:27* Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

Shalom. The prince of peace leaving you His Peace. Amen to that! The same peace that YOU can have in the midst of any trouble. The comfort of knowing that God is there with You; The feeling you get that everything will turn out fine no matter what.

The presence of God is truly the most precious of treasures. And the best part? He's just a holler away. =]

2007-02-19T08:44:00.001-08:00

Your Love Type: ENTJ

The Executive
In love, you seek relationships that you can grow and learn from.For you, sex should always be exciting and experimental.
Overall, you are bright, energetic, and helpful.However, you tend to be challenging and confrontational.
Best matches: INTP and ISTP

What's" Your Love Type?

2007-02-18T07:31:00.000-08:00

HOLD THE PRESSES! oh yeah.. guess who's back. back again.. to entertain you with a fresh leaf outta my new found "freedom" yeah sure. anyways, its CNY now, and 2 weeks since i completed my last paper and officially bid a fond farewell to mein poly. But let's leave the nostalgia behind and carry on to the matter at hand.

CNY this year is fantastic. honestly, the food was good, too good.. the snacks plentiful, and my mum seemed to remember to get me the ever quintessentially-sam new year gummies. *gorge* yeah.. take a good mental picture. its one of the rare few times you'll ever see me eat my heart out. Quite literally come to think abt it. This year seemed to have too much booze too. woot! Reunion dinner was fantastic.. Steam boat, mini teppanyaki, white wines and not to mention the fantastic lychee sorbet.. which i added some ice wine and brought the taste factor to a whole new dimension. *droolz*

Tonight, on new year's day, second aunt came back from overseas so guessed what we had for dinner again? THATS RIGHT PEOPLE! STEAMBOAT AGAIN! Nah. i wouldnt even get sick of it. Abalone seemed to be free flowing and with the exclusive wines my aunt brought back, dinner was once again a beauty fleeting memory. OH yeah.. she managed to get me my Chocolate mint Irish cream! Fantastic. i got 3 bottles of the stuff now waiting to be opened. Gonna get creative with it one of these days. wooo~

Red packets this year didnt turn out too bad.. I wouldnt give figures so you can stop searching my blog for it. but surprise surprise! My mum gave me Ang pao this year! first time in 20 years! Yeah i can see ur expression.. but trust me.. lets not go into detail. =P Hm.. seems like most of my relatives were working or travelling in this festive season, so i didnt manage to see them.. sigh.. not my lost.. their lost.. last year of seeing me with hair.. wahahahaha.. And did i mention that i got short listed for CDO? not that it needs any more publication.. seems like 3/4 of the people found out from someone, who found out from someone. haha.. *better start training*

Well, ill just let the pictures do the talking from now on.. gonna use my fingers for constructive work now.. Ie: Mahjong! wahahaha.. what! its Chinese New Year.. Don't try and stop me punk!

Grandparents with The Dog
Parents Generation

The Family CNY '07 After Service
Church Gals
MY Folks

- Chopsticks -

2007-02-09T09:03:00.000-08:00

- Chopsticks -

Well, i guess its offically over. Poly life has come to a close. 3 years of my life gone before i know it. Just writing that feels weird. Damn. Time flies too fast for me to grasp the magnitude of 3 years gone. What can i say? im lost for words. words fail me. The 3 years of experiences i collected was quite bluntly, Bloody amazing. So much happened, so little time. I never looked back. Not once. No regrets coming to poly. No regrets living poly the way i did. (Okay, maybe one or two but thats not the point) I'll miss the people. I'll miss the lectures, I'll miss the tutorials, hell i just might miss FC4.

Life progresses fast no?

I think only time will reveal how much my life revolved around poly. Only in the absence of it all will reveal how much i came to love that place. New aspects of life found, nutured, norished and florished in those study grounds. I'll never forget the first time i pulled a bow. I'll never forget the first time i screwed up my GPA, I'll never forget the first time i pulled up my GPA, i'll never forget... The list just goes on yea?

One thing i'll cherish most tho. The friendships formed. Without them, i would have been a very different person. Thank God for my bro, Eunice, Yaz, Jie, Bk.. And all the other nuts i picked up along the way.. Believe it or not, you guys affected me in one way or the other. Thanks. =]

Whatever the future has in store, i got 2 words. Bring It.

Sam~07
Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering Diploma Graduate.

2007-01-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

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2007-01-05T23:40:00.000-08:00

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Come on people.. say it with me. B-O-R-E-D. Thats right bored. Cos thats what i am right now manning my booth at SPINNOVEX. Wasting the afternoon hours away while i could be doing smth better. sigh what a post to start out the new year with eh. haha.. Well, China trip was definitely good. The sceneary was first class..much better than Switzerland no doubt. But the hygiene.. well, lets just leave it at that. Food was pretty good too. We really ate like kings and payed like 1 to 2 singapore dollars per person. Yup. im almost ashamed of it. wahahahaha.. Well, i hope it stays like this till china is forced to re-evaluate the yuan. Let me give u a short Summary of the places i went to. =]

Chengdu
Well, i've been here before, 4 years ago to be exact. And i can pretty much say that alot has changed. More in the people to be exact. The kids there now are like Damn... They try to look cool, but really fail miserably at it. I guess the new generation teens are trying to find their place in the world's society and are still experimenting trying to find their own sterotype. It'll be worth it just to go back to see how the population finds their own identity. City wise, still as cloudy and foggy but i did notice more shops selling international brands. Shops selling imitation international brands were also on the rise. heh. Oh yeah. when i was there, they were building themselves an underground railway system. China is booming. Went to see the face changing performance at 'Su Feng Ya Yin' its no let down. Honest. The other performance like the wayang, the shadow pupet and the pupet on a stick are all fantastic performances too.

XiLing Ski Mountain
Went here next, a mere 2 hour drive from the city. but the view could'nt have changed any more drastically. the concrete jungle that we're so used to transformed into a jungle of snow capped mountains and winding rivers at their valleys before our very eyes. Amazing stuff. God's Creation never ceases to amaze and humble you. Anyway, went there for one night, and we reached abt 3pm. Went to the skiing fields to ski immediately and what can i say? Gravity doesnt like me, and never really responded to my incessive whinning abt its mistreatment to me. Anyway, i was still balls enuf to go right to the top and ski down. Twice. Fell countless of times of course. In fact during my final decent, i fell so badly the ski flew over my head, centimeters away from presenting me an early Christmas gift, namely, a concussion. The hotels there were REALLY REALLY horrid. Hot water rationing, and no heating system in the lobby or even ur rooms. Sheesh. After a night of 2 blackouts and shivering ur arse off, We awoke to a SNOWING morning. woot! After that we took a cable car ride all the way to the summit. View was killed off by the thick clouds. Couldnt really see much until the wind decided to give us a short reprive here and there. Floor was quite dangerous tho. Slipped and fell quite a number of times. but im proud to say i travelled further than the rest of the group! woot! The air was thin too man.. couldnt breathe easily. The sausage they had on the top of the mountain was also fantastic man! Sprinkled with chilli and hua jiao powder, they're like the best snack for a cold winter.

Hai Luo Gou
This has GOT to be the highlight of the trip. Took a 6 hour bus ride from chengdu to the foot of the mountain. Reached the foot about 6pm. Transfered to a so called 'Green bus' hell, it made just abt the same amnt of smoke as a normal bus. Scary journey up to the 2nd camp site where my hotel was located.. Completely devoid of any form of lighting infrastructure, the only illumination came from the van's headlights. It had to stop halfway to fit chains onto it's wheels to give the vehicle traction on the icy road.
thats when i realised there was HEAVY SNOW outside! taking my chances, i snapped a picture with my camera and lo and behold.. the entire valley lit up from the camera's flash. Reflection from the decending snow.. Millions of small hovering candles lit only for a fraction of a second. It Doesnt Get Any More Beautiful Than That.

After reaching the hotel, the girls went camera crazy and started snapping pictures with the falling snow. Oh yeah, did i mention i could see each individual snow flake's design? =P the hotel had multiple hot springs in the estate, but this traveller was too weary to take my chances walking half nude to the spring in the freezing temperatures. Especially at night. Only Uncle Allan and Auntie Jean were bold enough to take that chance. My hats off.

Morning came, and we took a van up to the first camp site. real high up, 3000m i think and we all had to wear sun glasses to prevent snow blindness. God's grace worked here, giving us the sun to part those clouds away, giving us full access to His wonderful creation. From the camp site, we took a cable car up to the summit. We passed by fields of glaciers and i even managed to see a couple of waterfalls there.. Magnificent view. Once on top, we hiked down 50m to the glacier fields to have a closer look at the huge ice glaciers. One problem tho. Each individual was supposed to have a pair of ice spikes on their shoes to give them more traction on the snow packed trails. somehow, my pair seemed to ahve argued that day, and the right side decided to call it quits and left the expedition half way into the decent. So there i was.. walking like a lame man down the steep path. But thank God that he heals the lame right? Somehow, we managed to hike down and up without anything happening to us. None too soon too. the moment we left, the clouds started rolling down the valley and headed for us.. God's grace man. Accept No Subsitutes.

Went back to our hotel for a dip in the hot springs. My feet couldnt agree more. They were too frozen from that hike to even respond. Quite literally, my feet were cold towards me. (?)Pun intended(?) Anyway, after changing into swimming gear, we rushed out into the negative degree wind. the cold just hits you like a train man.. Train with spikes.. it cuts right through ur body and ur only solice is to dive into that steaming pool of sulphuric water. Damn does it feel good. To be submurged in 40 degrees water with SNOW merely half a meter away just counts for something doesnt it? After half an hour of soaking(Did i mention its suppose to have positive effects for the skin?) We headed down to the base of the mountain to stay for a night before heading back to Chengdu the next day.

XiaMen
Last leg of the trip. Visited this coastal city to visit some of my distant relatives. My grandfather's to be exact. Met them at his hometown at Long Men. Dragon's Door when loosely translated. Nice place really.. just that the entire place is quite literally the country.. so yeah. ill leave it to ur imagination =] Played with firecrackers there.. i guess the locals must be staring at us like some kids completely devoid of a sense of fun. wahahaha.. it was only when we explained that Singapore doesn't have firecrackers did they understand our over-reaction. Last minute shopping all done at the city.. All our shopping done in the last minute before we took the flight back.. haha.. spent like 1000 RMB on clothes.. But all fantastic ones. none the less. =]

Seeked the Lord over many issues during the Trip. I guess the best way would be to put complete trust in Him. Trust in Him to provide the perfect one. Hope That Doesn't Disappoint. =]

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2006-12-14T14:29:00.000-08:00

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Well, here i am.. 6.28am in changi airport.. preparing to fly in a couple of minutes time.. Hope everything is gonna be okay.. Our safety is in my Lord's hands. I know my daddy God is gonna take care of everything.. To all peeps passing thru here.. heres wishing u a great holiday season and an early merry christmas! =]

May the Lord shine His Countenance upon you. =]

Merry X'mas 06~

Signin' Off

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2006-12-10T07:53:00.000-08:00

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Well, seems like a while since i blogged.. haha.. * blows cobwebs* away.. So far, everything has been good. 2006 has indeed been a year of acceleration. Way too fast haha.. But i've seen acceleration in many areas as well.. Studies, Character, Friends, Gifts and my ever elusive 6 pac. =P Praise Jesus! Thank You for your ever present mercy.

Just got back from watching Casino Royale with Aidah.. Real good show.. in fact it shows a side of the Slick 007 which many dont know about. More humane as many reviews put it. Had dinner at Surf & Turf. First time there.. food was okay.. but the service was pretty good.. The staff were helpful and understanding.. One waiter even slipped me a free glass of pepsi. Woot! Tio stunned.. No no.. he's not hitting on me.. Anyway, had a really good conversation with Aidah. So much to share after not meeting for so long.. Hm.. learnt quite abit abt girls from her also.. Really interesting to talk to her.. never fails to amaze me on the variety of stuff there are to talk abt.

Haven't been going down fro trainings as often.. My Rachel baby is crying for my company. hahaha.. Thats cos there are so many other things to do on a glorious saturday morning.. like muggin'........ *BISH* haha.. Tennis with friends, Long hikes lost in nature, Man the list goes on. Anyway.. ill be leaving SG this Friday morn. heading to China for a holiday.. Last one before heading to NS.. haha.. oh yea.. With God's grace, i was healthy enough to make it to PES A. =] Going to Xi ling Snow mountain, then Hai Luo Gou (hot springs) followed by a trip to my grandfather's hometown in xiamen.. Oh yeah.. did i mention the Whole of JY's family is coming along? haha.. Hope everything turns out well.

The Lord Has Given The Power To Loose & To Bind. I'm Gonna Use it. You Alone I Praise

You're Somewhere Out There.. And Christ Will Bring Us Together.

Blessed Shall Be The Fruit Of My Body.

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2006-11-15T05:07:00.000-08:00

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Mmmm.. Its been a while since i ran.. Ran today after my mechanics paper.. which actually turned out to be pretty good. Excpet for the last part which i made a careless mistake. Other than that, i shld be able to do well for it. Thank You Lord! haha.. there was one part which stumpped me.. i was like WtH?? Didnt know got such question. Thank God for his Grace and mercies. I manged to do that qns in the end. =]

Anyhow, 2 tests left, and Selva Raj was kind enuff to push Fluid mech back 2 weeks. Yeah. Shld be able to score for all now.. Time to mug Engineering Thermo.. *Mug* haha.. I really missed running. Ran for 50 mins straight without stopping. At the 40 min mark, i reached the zoning mode. Just stare ahead and push urself to run. Distance is but a number, a mere limit that the rest of the world puts to satisfy itself. To the Runaholic, Distance is non-existent. The thrill and adrenaline running through your veins, the very thing your heart is running on, is all that matters. The pedestrian ahead is to be overtaken. The music at my ears is silence. Listen to your heart beating. Flow with the rhythm. Accelerate it at will. Listen to it talk. Control your breathing. A last burst of energy and You're home. Woot! No other sport like it.

Hm.. Letting go is actually turning out to be pretty good. Everything seems to be able to flow smoothly. Still abit rocky, but Jesus loves me. THIS i know. =]

I Have Hope. Hope That Does Not Disappoint. For The Love Of God Has Been Poured Out In MY Heart By The Holy Spirit Who Was Given To Me.

Whoever You Are, Watch Out =] I'm Gonna Rock Your World.

It's Time

2006-11-08T07:30:00.000-08:00

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Alright man. Thats it. I got the calling. Im gonna answer to it. Its time to Arise to a whole new level, From Glory to Glory.

I've been stagnant in this stage of life for way too long. I got the prompting, and im gonna spread my wings and fly.

But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the Glory of The Lord, are being trnasformed into the same image from Glory to Glory, just as by the Spirit of The Lord.

2Corinthians 3:18

Faith is substance of all things hoped for. The evidence of Things not seen.

Hebrews 11:1

I believe its only through Faith i can please Him. And i BELIEVE; He is a rewarder of those who Dilligently seek His face.

Amen Lord. I am your empty vessel, Letting Go, Letting You.

Take it all.

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2006-11-05T05:04:00.000-08:00

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Mmm hm.. its time for a another entry on this cool sunday evening. How's my last week of school before E learning? well, all i gotta say is Life passes before u eyes real fast.. 6 weeks gone. 6 weeks... Can u understand the speed at which life travels? haha..

Went to TNS carnival yesterday at the request of Jia En. I really had fun yesterday. no joke.. fun till my shoulders are slightly bruised from the continuous impact from Uncle Ringo's rotating machine. 7 times. Can u imagine sitting that ride 7 times?? haha.. Even the teacher manning the queue gave the 3 of us incredulous stares and replied us with an unbelieving "AGAIN?!" Haha.. Picking the marbles was fun and easy. Managed to win Jia En a bear shaped pillow with 28 marbles in 1 minute. Correct chopsticks handling technique and momentum. Elementry my dear watson. =] Jia Ying's mum was really great.. Could see how actively she participated in the parents commitee. Could see nothing can be too physically taxing for that Woman. Woot. The Grace of God is with Her.
We went to the haunted house next. Haha.. queued for damn long for that.. Set up by primary 1 kids. but damn those people inside could really give a show. JE was cowering behind me and screaming at the slightest movement in that dark room. Poor girl. she even came out with tears in her eyes. =\ Went to catch fishes next... they had 3 tubs and each had lil swordtails in them. The trick? using an undersized net and defying the laws of refraction to try and grab those fishees. Managed to catchone only in the first attempt. Yeah. only one fish from the 3 of us. CAUGHT BY ME!! wahahaha.. On the second time, Jia ying went into overkill mode.. 7 to 8 fishes i think.. Poor buggers.. i only managed to catch 3 in the process.. Kinda felt sorry for the fishes, kids were sticking their nets in like swords try to spear the fishs.. needless to say, they didnt catch any thing and managed t even kill one or two in the process.. eugh..
Went to play at the gladiator arena next. Although the queue was long, it was well worth it when it came to Jy and my turn. Haha.. i can safely say we were certainly the crowd pleaser. On the first round, i switched my normal sized cotton ear bud for a bigger badder blue one. At that point even the crowds were begining to take sides. The younger kids were chanting "Boy win! Boy win!" Such a tender age and taking sides. I wonder which side of the roulette table they will be taking when the time comes. Whats that u say? socially irresponsible comments?okay.. Let them pick soccer teams first then. =] Anyhow, JY was fierce. Couldnt tell that a petite girl like her could actually deliver such heavy blows. Reacting fast enuff, i managed to duck a few blows and deliver a few to her legs. At this point of time, the crowd was laughing at our crazy antics. After a greulling 2 minutes, (Balancing on those platforms werent easy) i managed to score a victory. Of course what. im a guy. =P surprisingly.. She got the second victory! Mabe its cos i gave lee way to her and switched to the normal sized cotton bud.. She somehow managed to catch me off balance and throw me a single jab which sent me sprawling to the inflated rubber arena. Aws and boos could be heard at this point.. Yup... They're hearts went out to me.. :P haha... i suppose a victory from a girl surprised them. But.. Kudos to Jia ying. You're tougher than u look. Then came the epic finale! it was almost 4 minutes long, with each of us delivering fatal blows and trying to knock each other out. There came the point where she tried to grab the baton out of my hand and yank me down. Thus, i improvised. I let her have my baton while i made a grab for hers. ALmost like some Star Wars movie. shld have "The battle of the heros" playing in the background and George lucas would have scouted us for the next lightsaber scene in his next Star Wars franchise. hehe.. Finally i managed to push her off the platform using my end of the baton and the crowd goes wild!! We sure entertained them :)
Spent the rest of the afternoon Sitting on uncle ringo's amusement machine. More like bruise machine if i may beg to differ. My butt and shoulders ached today when i woke up in the morning. 7 times.. i cant believe we rode it 7 times. it came to the point where i could nonchalantly sit on the ride without screaming.. i bet some people on the bottom were wondering why these 3 people were sitting on the ride if it didnt give them the thrill.. haha. hey. this kinda cool comes only after MUCH MUCH experience okay. Went to have lunch with JY's family at the coffeeshop opp. my house after that. Found out that her mum's cooking style like mine. Just get the standard ingrediants out and use creativity to determine how much to add. YEah man! thats the way to cook. Hm...you know what, i wouldnt mind gg overseas to study. i'll be honoured. =]

Went to have breakfast this mornin with yings. Had a fabulous time in the word today. I hoped The Lord ministered to her through what i shared. I think He did. Cos she also randomly flipped to Esc. 3 unknowlingly. The Lord provides! Amen! I believe the Lord will reward those whom seek His face dilligently. And by His faith, i'm gonna do that. Not for the blessings, but cause i want to know my Lord intimately and put him before every situation. Lord, don't hide your face. Instead, rain your prescence on me for i need You dearly now.

I think im gonna take a break in the month of december. im gonna attend New Creation Church for the month of december and seek the Lord wholly, without fear and doubt. There are some things i need to get away from. I hope a month off will help =] I desperately seek wisdom and patience from The Lord for now. Nothing else.. Okay.. maybe some help with my E learning and Tests. Thank You Lord.

5 more months and im gonna be 20. My teenagehood gone in a flash. What have i accomplished? Will i look back in regret thinking that i could spent it better? Or will i come out of it being proud of The man The Lord has shaped and moulded me into? Hm. I choose the latter. =]

By the Grace of God. I am what I am

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2006-10-29T06:50:00.000-08:00

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Well, just decided to take some time out and blog before i hit the showers. A quick update.. which may turn a lil long if i decide it to.. Dang.. what in the world am i sayin.. Just take a double shot expresso and dodge on.

Went to MOS on saturday.. i dont want to blog much about it.. lets just that lets say i wont go clubbing in the next year or so.. Fun being fun, it was kinda like the high from the music with or without the alcohol.. Of course.. for me. it was with.. had a tad too much alcohol and Nearly failed my responsibilities.. But thank God for his grace to bring us thru everything. Left the place with my heart in my mouth and feeling really dizzy from the loud pumping bass. Of course.. u must be thinking.. thats it? i expected a more detailed description of that place.. i mean it is Ministry of Sound after all isnt it? True.. but lets not go there.. The things i saw and the things i did.. Lets just say i found it harmful to the spirit. But i will say, it was fun, and everyone shld try it once. Althought truth be told. You're not missing much. Im sticking to pubs if i need a drink from now on.

Got to know a new friend. Aidan. Won't do him justice to even decribe him. You just gotta be around him to understand what kinda guy he is. One of the last remaining Gentleman i came across. Really hope to meet up and talk to him in due time.. Truly enjoyed his company and i admired how merticulous and caring he was for the girls. Truly a Gentleman.

Woke up this morning after like 6 hrs of sleep and headed to starbucks to get my coffee and medidate on the Word to flow in the Spirit. The previous night of hard partying had really just left me feeling lost inside for some reason. *Desperately seek the Holy Spirit* haha.. The first thing i asked at the coffee counter was "Do you have anything for a hangover?" The bewildered cashier looked at me and suggested a Cafe Americano. Double shot of expresso. woot.. Really had a great time in the word and planning out the sequence for the worship leading later. The King On The Cross. What He went thru, we will never know. Writing the sequence on a piece of napkin seemed surreal, but whatever works. At 1050, i headed out.. and the counter girl was kind enuff to ask me if it worked helping me get over my hangover, so that she could reccomend it to other customers.. lol.

Worship leading went fine today.. i could feel the spirit flowing inside me. One day. My confidence is this. Those youths will rise to the challenge and worship our Heavenly Father. Went to second service at church. My day took a realy turn from there onwards. Zhang mu shi was preaching today, and i felt the messge speaking out to me. I was crying as i was taking down notes. How much He loves me. More than i can love any girl.. More than i can even love Him. For we love Him, because He first loved us. The might of God The Father, God The Son and God The holy Ghost. The message touched my heart. Its thru difficulty, its through tribulation that will make that hardened heart of yours melt, and make you turn to Him, so that you know He Loves You. During the closing prayer, i was really just crying my heart out as he asked for believers and non believers alike who wanted God's blessing and acceptance to use them. I Raised My Hand. At that point of time, i really needed tissue. My eyes were blotchy and nose running. It was then i realised i had a hankerchief in my pocket. Gosh.. i just wept even more. Let me explain. Im not one to carry hankerchiefs. And that morning, in my semi drunken stupour, i somehow grabbed a hankerchief and put it in my pocket. It felt like the holy spirit was prompting me to take it. His careful planning to provide me even a simple hankerchief in my weeping state. This testimony will last forever. It brings a tear just thinking abt it.. I have such a caring God who will decend to my level to take care of me.

Bless the Lord O my soul. All that is within me BLESS Him.

Greatly Blessed, Forever Loved, Highly Favoured. Amen

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2006-10-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

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Great.. just great. Sam, ur one hell of a dumb person to even fall for it.

Real clever of you to put so much hope into it only to see it come crashing down.

Whatever happened to your beliefs? LET GO AND LET GOD PLEASE!

God help me. Its coming back.. Stronger than ever. Help Lord!

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2006-10-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

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Well, hols today was well spent i guess.. hadnt been feeling so well in so long. Looks like the long weekend helped alot..

Was needing some help over some issues of recent "internal disturbances", and never to fail me, My God answered me today with Ecclesiastes 3. Believe it or not, i was still slightly fretting until i just open my bible to a random passage. Ecc. 3 just jumped out. "To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven." It goes on to give examples of such times. It got me thinking. Was it time yet? How do i know if its time yet? But Thank the Lord for he showed me what this passage Really meant. It wasnt just about something simple like saying everything has its time. It was saying have patience. Like every season of the year, it takes time to change. Like every season of the year, each has its own advantges and activities exclusive to it.

I felt God was telling me. Don't rush head first into things. Enjoy the season for everything will come to pass. dun regret not enjoying this season. Don't be too hasteful in rushing from one season or time to the other. Don't let the Spirit of haste come over you. I guess sometimes we do rush into things without thinking or planning too carefully. How fast we can do it preceeds How well we can do it. haha.. quoting Pastor Prince's sermon here.. those who are free can check out the video sermon "Nuggets of God's grace in The feeding of the 5000."at www.newcreation.com.sg

What to do now? Rest Eaaaasssy i guess. And trust God's plan for my life, to put me at the right place and the right time for everything. Oh yes. Happy B'day Jia Ying! Have an Everlasting Eighteen. =]

Time to Let Go & Let God.

"Therefore I say to you, Whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will receive them." Mark 11:24

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2006-10-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

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Ah yes.. yet another time for the ever consistent update.. hiked macritchie on depavali.. this time with mum dad and ying.. By God's grace, the haze lifted, and we experienced the sun for most of the journey up the hill. PSI was only abt 60 plus i think..

Anyway, thejhourney uphill to the treetop walk was pretty much okay.. The air was uniquely fresh with the constant resupply of oxygen from the surrounding trees. It was cool to be back here exactly a month later. Not much happened, except mum and dad got seprated from us cos they were walking too slow.. couldnt blame them tho.. mum hadnt been exercising for months.. haha.. The last kilometer up the treetopwalk was again, the worst part of the journey.. it was so tiring just getting up hill, that the 3 of us nearly collapsed once we got up.. Jia Ying was like "The monkeys.. i want to eat the monkeys.." Yeah.. we were pretty delirious.. A drink from our gatorade bottles ensured that all thoughts of consuming monkeys were kept at bay. Oh yeah.. we had the opportunity to actually see a couple of monkeys mate.. haha.. they actually were looking at us while at their "thing"

We waited for about half an hour before i saw my parents climbing up the hill.. my mum was clearly tired and saying she wanted to kill me for even talking her into hiking today.. wahahaha.. anyway.. the treetop walk was wonderful.. altho the haze did diminish the fun abit.. we couldnt see far, but managed to catch a glimpse of pierce.. it was cool to look down from the suspension bridge.. didnt manage to see any animals tho.. was hoping to see manaques foraging for food. But boy did i get more than enough monkey later on.. just read on and ur see what i mean.

Next stop, was jelutong tower. We planned to have a nice picnic up at the scenic top floor, which had the 360 degree view of the forest. The view was impressive, and we had our shoes off and sandwiches laid ou in front of us.. Jia ying was kind enuff to bring some pineapple tarts which tasted amazingly good for homemade ones.. Now came the climax of our journey.. unknown to us, an unsuspecting manaque had followed us UP TO THE TOP LEVEL! We were just about to dig in when i saw the bugger climbing up the stairs mere centimeters away from me. I was thinking "hey thats a manaque.. whats it doing.." Didnt manage to complete my thoughts. the cheeky bugger made a grab for the box of pineapple tarts. Thanks to jia ying's quick reaction, the box of pineappletarts were snatched faster than u can say "Bloody monkey trying to grab my tarts." Okay.. that wasnt so fast.. but fast enuff. To make up for its slower reaction, the primape made do with MY SANDWICH! the basket animal then ambled past me and sat on its arse 30cm from me and started munching on my sandwich, bread first then my piece of luncheon meat. "Im sorry," it seemed to say "But my family and i have yet to eat for a while. You mind if u gave me this sandwich? oops i seemed to have finished it. Be a good lad and pass me those pineapple tarts too will you?" Im not making this up. He even decided to try snatching the pineapple tarts from Jy's bag.. A perfect picnic wrecked. We decided to carry on our journey from there and started on the last leg of our journey back to macritchie car park. Not much changed on the last leg, except a tree dropped on a bench.. how things can change in a month..

Anyhow, another journey well completed.. looking forward t another one soon.

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2006-10-07T08:12:00.000-07:00

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Well, its been a couple of weeks past, and i guess its abt time i updated here.. hm.. school has started and so far so good.. pretty slack for a final semester, but im still crossing my fingers. Pretty much understand wahts going on altho i think its time i started studying already, before the tutorials drown me. Seriously bored right now on a saturday night. PSI is high( i think this shld be just abt the most blogged abt thing in asia at the mo'), and todays trng session was seriously cut short thanks to them indons across the straits. i just dont see the logic in razing ur own forests to the grown and making ur neighbours pay for it. Maybe the terrorist are looking in the wrong direction. Creating a haze would grab the attention far better than their roadside bombs. All they need now is live broadcast message saying they done it.. It's just about the only thing they are god at come to think about it.
Archery session has okay today.. bow set is feeling great, in terms of shock absortion but, something just seems different after that torrential rain shooting during the PPCC competition. AND MY STRING KEEPS KISSING MY LIP!! the bugger of a thing hurts everytime i releases and its starting to really bug me. Also, maybe its just me but my eyes got a lil irritated and my coughing acted up just abit.. Haze.. bleah.
Been searching thru the net for uni applications.. seems like SAT is a must for US bound universities. Was considering the possiblities of making it to UCSD or University of California San Diego. Overseas studies are really starting to becoming more appealing for me. Its high time i left the comforts of home and spread my wings and fly. i'd be MAN by then anyway.. Spaking of which, December 6 is my checkup.. Hope they dun give me a jab.. just call me a sissy or what have you. i hate getting a prick anywhere near my body.
Been sitting down and thinking about some things recently, about where im headed to, whats in store for me, and whether its time to ya know, give relationships another go. haha.. funny thing.. its just about the only thing that is so hard to let go on. My conclusions? ask me if ya wanna know. =] i still need guidance on these things.. i need a caregroup soon.. going it solo for the Christian life just isnt easy. i need brudders and sisters in Christ to surround my life. I cant stress the importance on how essential it is to have Godly frens supporting me thru out this period of life.
School's slack so far.. anyone up for a game of tennis? Fire is growing again ever since i played at ying's house with her and her sisters. The adrenaline is something i miss.. =] And can i stop and address how much i adore jia en? haha.. little bundle of joy.. Her presence just lifts my spirits despite her constant acts of agression. =] anyhow, im ending here.. i want the haze to stop so i can continue my running!! im living to try out my new running shoes.. New Balance with 360 gel protection for shock absorbtion.. Busted knee, say bye bye! haha.. Knee's been giving me a bit of problem in lieu of the recent jogging sessions. hurts when i run up and down a kerb. Im gonna need God's grace for my new trng regime.. Swimming and running, followed by maybe 2 days of gyming. no no.. im not taking part in any biathalon.. im just enjoying the exercise as much as possible, in lieu of the free time i have and of course.. the coming NAPFA. i want gold if possible.

Praise The Lord O My Soul, And Forget Not ALL His Benefits-
Who Forgives All Your Sins
And Heals All Your Diseases
Who redeems Your Life From Destruction
And Crown You With Love & Compassion
Who Satisfies Your Desires With Good Things
So That Your Youth Is Renewed Like The EAGLES.
Psalms 103: 2 -5

The Christian Life Is Eassssy.. And The Yolk Light.

Thus I Claim & Enjoy It.

The Art of Losing Myself In Bringing You Praise.

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2006-09-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

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Mm... first day of school today.. but felt like a holiday. why? cos i went to school at 8 and left at 9.. No No.. i didnt pon class, but class pon me..or rather, the class ended at 9.. hence , having no lessons after that, i left!Had prawn mee at jalan sultan with Dad.. dang i missed the noodles there.. Amazingly, the auntie knows my dad there.. commented i look better than he did.. wahahaha.. =P

Anyway, what i wanted to blog about was the last few days of my hols.. Praise God, i managed to hike Macritchie at long last! woot. Let house at 10.. about an hour later than what i expected, but all in good time. Sky looked threatening, but i Prayed over it and left the weather to my Father's hands. Reached macritchie abt 30 mins after leaving home with my bro.. armed with my backpack, jungle boonie and 2 bottles of drink, we embarked upon the great crusade.. Right.. anyhow, it was a 4.5km hike to the tree top walk and we completed that in abt an hours time, bypassing countles aunties and uncle, a couple of enthusiastic ang mohs who actually ran on that trecherous path.. by the time we reached the enterance of the treetop walk, i was gasping for breath.. the last kilometer(they had markers along th way) to the summit was the worst. Took a 5 min break before proceeding onto the treetop walk.
250m long and 25m above ground, it was scary. i could see everything below that suspension bridge.. although it was supose to be sturdy, the cynical side of me made me grab hold of the railings and adrenaline made me hold on to it despite all thoughts of just letting go and enjoy the panaromic view that surrounded me.. i actually took a minute break in between the bridge and turned my eyes to the surroundings. it may have disrupted the 250m dash those pesky kids behind me were trying to conduct but ah kids will be kids. Damn. Damn. it. was. breath-taking. Green trees surrounded you. the once familiar concrete jungle was now a literal jungle of fawn & flora. Every breath u took was that humid, fresh jungle 02. A look beneath the see thru platform i was standing on made me snap back to reality and the hands were back on the railing. Sigh. Altophobia.
Came to the end of the bridge and took the long winding stairs down to ground level.. Believe it or not, i saw this monkey beside me on my descent, sitting on the railing, staring at me ever so nonchalently. His posture and look gave me the impression he was used to seeing sweaty red face people pass him on a daily basis. Ah well, prime apes. The next stop was jelutong(i hope i got the name right.) tower. i was abit apprehensive as ache was starting to be acquainted with my thighs. But my adenterous bro decided to check it out and boy was i not dissapointed, Macritchie had to give me another retinal gift at the top of the tower. This time however, spoilt slightly by the view of people tee-ing off at the nearby range, which happened to be the next destination on our map, on the round trip back to macritchie. Met some helpful trekkers and a polite caucasian golfer who actually bothered to say a cheery "Good Afternoon" to this sweaty, stinky Asian.
The last gift macritchie gave to me was a 2km walk along a bridge right next to the macritchie resevoir. With the water gently splashing mere inches to my left, and trees and plant to my right, i was downright spoilt. It was soothing. It was rejuvenating. I finally understood the magnitude of God's creation. The sound of an imminent thunderstorm quickened our pace and we completed the 11km round trip around macritchie, before draggin our sore bodies home.
I saw 3 monitor lizards, and lucky enuff to see one of them hunting prey. 2 baby squirels and a dozen monkeys which were more than happy to bare their arses at me. It wa a great day. And true to being faithful to His word, Not a single raindrop touched me during that trip. =]
Even though i ended this trip with 2 blisters on my feet, it was damned worth it. going back in october. Any takers? =]

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2006-09-19T10:46:00.000-07:00

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Damn.. this is insane as it gets.. 130am in the morning and here i am blogging to michael buble's Feeling Good.. for some reason, this song has been inspiring to me? Really feeling good listening to it.. oddly enuff.. Missed listen to a new tune by Buble. A new dawn, a new day, a new Life For Me & i'm Feeeeling Gooooood... No really, i really truly am feeling good. =]

Completed my new route for running today.. must admit.. that one a bt scary.. running meters away from the PIE.. and running close to the jungle area.. but it rocks.. totally.. hope my body's gonna ache.. i need some aching in my body to know im pushing it.. Damn.. i think my hike needs some pushing back.. parents wouldn let me hike alone.. sigh.. i really want to comlete that by this week... close to 20 clicks of hike.. mm my legs are getting jolts of electricity just thinking of it..

iight.. eyes are getting itchy.. not a good sign.. it means sleep is imminent which means my hols are coming to a close. Who cares.. im feeling good.

Sam 06~

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2006-09-17T02:39:00.000-07:00

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Well, holidays are coming to an end soon, and i must say its a well deserved break. Results are out, and by God's grace i managed a 3.68.. culmulative is 0.09 short of making it 3.5. but im sure with God at my helm, Uni admissions is definitely possible. Amen and Thank You Lord.
Hm.. archers chalet went pretty much ok, had much fun and not much sleep, typical of any chalet come to think of it. Wild wild wet was fun although there werent many rides.. good thing there werent many people too.. Slide up was fun.. the look on yazid's face was priceless.. haha..
Well, just thought of blogging a little longer today to pen down all my thoughts.. take a dose of caffine and carry on then.

Was reading The annointing by R.T Kendall, my mum told me it was a good read, i must agree it is. it talks about the difference between being yesterday, today and tommorow's man. a little difficult to grasp i understand. in short, the past few weeks in my life has clearly been a "Yesterday's Man" era. i was a thing of the past. irrevelant to God's plans. The presence of the Holy Spirit had left me. God was not present in my thoughts and the annointing had clearly lifted from my life. Like a blind man i grope for the walls, seeking an answer to my problems. Scary isnt it? i was clearly jealous at the wrong things. i was jealous at other people's gifts, and i was jealous at how other people had 'taken over' me. This book made me realise how much i was struggling with the wrong things and scared me into just letting it go. i dont want to deprive myself of the Lord's blessings nor act under the false pretense of Doing his works. What now? you may ask. well, as much as i wan to hold on for the possibility, its time to Let Go. Let GO. LET GO.
The book was also telling us not to have too high an expectations for ourself. To work within the limits of our annointing. It got me thinking. Am i pushing myself too hard? am i serving in the correct ministry? Most imptly, am i carrying out the CORRECT plan the Lord has for me. It says everyone of us has gifts. quite honestly, i've been searching for that answer for the past few days. anyone reading this, care to list wad gifts i have? i had enough of imitating other people's high profile annointing. I just wanna serve the Lord using the gifts he gave me. Thats all.
The book also touched on success. How God will withold success on a person until he is truly ready to accept it for it may bring about his downfall. After reading that and comparing to my past relationship, i sinceely pray the Lord will not listen to my rash requests and only bless me with a new relationship when he sees fit, (ie: Me not taking myself too seriously)

Well, im closing now.. The last week of hols starts in another 6 hours. Hope to complete The book of romans and hike macritchie. =)

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2006-09-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

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Well, the holidays have been going smoothly so far.. just that i got some stuff that i wanted to do and am not doing as smothly as i expected. i was reading romans yesterday, as part of my holiday quest to finish the book of romans. i came upon a section where it said to rejoice in our tribulations. For tribulations brings forth perseverance, and perseverance character, and character Hope. Hope which does not dissapoint. Im really learning to hold onto that promise. i have no idea how else im gonna tide over what im feeling now. its like this jumble of thoughts and messed up thinking inside me. Jia ying, if ur reading this, all i gotta say is, im sorry. im sorry im avoiding you on purpose and im sorry for not being able to be my normal self around you.
Thoughts just cloud my mind and im hating my flesh for even coming up with thoughts like that. i seriously gotta stop this nonsense before it ruins our friendship.

In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, i rebuke these thoughts, never to return and haunt me.

Lord ! Save Me~

haha so far so good(?)

2006-08-27T08:59:00.000-07:00

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Ah finally, the exams are finally over.. confident of getting a B+ for every module except for aero materials.. i think that one was a killer paper.. it didnt score 8.5 over 10 for a kill factor by Bang himself for nothing i guess. anyway, exams have come and gone, and so far God has shown his sweet grace towards me at every single juncture. Every single time i cried to him, be it homework or personal problems, he was there to grab me.. mmMM. My God is faithful! Exams results are coming out soon, but ah who cares? whats more impt than my God? Got some revelation today at service.. from 1 john. in short, whatever Jesus is in heaven, so are you. For you are IN him. What does that mean? whats so special? which means that how Jesus is blessed and without sin in heaven, SO AM I! hallelujah! haha.. i feel so blessed right now.. what a fantastic way to end 2 weeks of exams.. Whatever Jesus is in Heaven, so are you on this earth. For you are in the Risen Christ. Lookin forward to this weeks of well deserved break. gonna try and complete the book of Romans in this 4 weeks. hehe..
"You don't have the trust of your parents. Maybe thats why you seek the trust of others." Didnt know a sentace like that could impact a person so much. Hope she's clear about her thoughts now. Lord, be with her. show her your tender mercies and embrace her with your eternal love. Your Truth, is Eternal.
Well, thats abt it.. JIE!! if ur reading this, get back to me soon? i wanna cordinally invite u for service next sunday.. =]

PS: Hui Yun, nice blog.. good going.. =]

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2006-08-06T20:37:00.000-07:00

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Well, the fact that i'm in school typing this right now suggest a few things doesn't it? Firstly, you could say im bored. yea. 2 hr break now, so i guess i am a lil bored.. secondly, much is on my mind now.. Academically, spiritually and mentally, im just drained. Pastor Lian's preaching really got me thinking.. What you think inside determines what ur actions are on the outside. Outside, u may be Hallelujah and Grace Grace, but inside what are you thinking? Are u truly doing it cos the grace of the Lord shines? or is it just for a show? i realised why i couldn't do so many things that i had wanted to do. it isnt abt forcing my outward actions to change the way i think. Changing what i do on the outside should begin with what i think INSIDE. for once, i left church really questioning myself and feeling more tired than ever. To rest in The Lord's finished work isnt as simple as i thought it was. The situation varies, and the way of resting is different. i guess what i can say right now is to trust in him, and go about my life without stress or worry, for it chokes the Word from my life. I wanna get in the word more often. im not gonna let the worries of life choke me. im gonna transplant my seeds frm the rocky ground to good soil and nurture it to grow. I WANT THAT 100 FOLD ANNOINTMENT! I shall guard my heart above All things and Lord, i thank You for You are with me! hm... continuing my blog now at home.. had to save it as a draft cos lesson started then.. Something's brewing inside me right now.. Faith is springing forth. i Thank You Father for your Son's perfect finished work on that cross that has gaurenteed me everything that i will ever need.. my heart and soul Rests in you Lord Jesus! Its NOT ABOUT ME! ITS ABOUT JESUS!!!! =]

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2006-07-26T08:41:00.000-07:00

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Okay.. i seriously haven blogged in a while.. thats due to some crushing workload that i've just managed to leave aside brifely to blog this.. well.. since my last entry, so far so good.. cept for maybe poly 50.. only person in club to tio accident. But its ok now.. scabs mostly gone dude to some itchy fingers.. hehe.. the skin's just raw now.. Hm.. abt my workload.. 50% of it goes to my aero report.. damn man.. we rushed like mad and came up with crazy ideas just to explain our results.. managed to finish it by 12pm.. deadline 12:15pm lol.. then came the presentation.. woot.. i think our team did the best for it.. came up with a presentation that was logical as compared to the other teams.. well done guys.. 60 slides in 20 mins.. Excellent job. Archery.. hm.. a pity the korean coach had to leave.. sigh.. a wealth of knowledge leaving the singapore archery scene.. anyhow.. Right now, i just shoot and leave the results to Jesus. whatever i do , i do it for the sake of glorifying Him. Well, its back to the books.. Lookin foward to the Exams in 2 weeks time. i know smth's gonna happen. Woot. PRAISE AND WORSHIP NITE THIS FRIDAY AT INDOOR STAIDUM!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

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2006-07-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

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Ok, i have no idea why im feeling this way, but slowly i get the feeling that the ppl arnd me are getting waaayyy too childish and immature for my liking.. they laugh loudly and have absolutely no care for the near future or their own interests at heart. they are spontaneous and do whatever they're heart wishes them to without thinking of the concequences. Im starting to get sick and tried giving advice to these ppl when they can even lie in front of my face. Downtrodden right now.. Wheres that someone i can have coffee with and chat the day away???? Wheres that person who is actually INTERESTED in growing spiritually? Wheres someone who just enjoys quiet moments with friends and enjoys each others company instead of making so much noise?? I need peace. I need quiet. I want my Mocha Latte. I need someone i can hold a proper conversation with without the giggling and childish babble im facing right now.
Oh yeah. i just realised this. I still like her. haha. funny thing isnt it. Lord, Please, grant me the ability to put this thing behind me and move on in serving and concentrating my life on you. This is taking too much of my time. And shes attached. Did i mention that? Its an up hill struggle that has been gg on for months. im at a complete loss of what to do. Sigh.
Archery.. Sigh. this scene of Archery politics is seriously Fucked up. Pardon my language. i cant find a more suitable word. Screw it. Im depending on the Lord to provide me a way now. Teach me how to rely on you For my acts of self righteousness and Self effort are nothing but filthy rags.
Can ANYONE please please please tell me what in the world is so interesting and fun abt getting in a relationship when ur not considering the possibility of marriage? i went thru one. it hurt, and i stopped there. some ppl just dont get it. its like putting a flame under ur arm and saying it hurts and not doing anything abt it. Sigh... This cycle of ungrace has got to end soon. I hope teens will seriously wake up their idea and STOP living in their dream fantasy of happily ever after. Have ur fun for 12 to 13 months. after that, Good luck. Wake up and smell the coffee.
I'm delerious.. Thinking analytically too much.. Henikien Rocks. Lord, help me. Please.

How i've been.

2006-06-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

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Well, its been so good so far.. went for jing ming's wedding last saturday.. pretty nice atmosphere.. didnt manage to see her in a gown tho.. wasted.. haha.. Heard some stuff abt me and her.. i was like o.0 lol... dont get me wrong.. shes a nice gal. But those close to me know me well enuff then to engage in a relationship Again. haha. Besides man. wads up with the world and relationships? i see no point ( oh here we go again) People go around saying i love you to each other. has the word Love become of so little importance that it is used so flippantly and blatantly? I feel disgraced seeing people huging and kissing on the MRT. and if thats not bad enuff, they call that Love. Like. Wth?
People! please take note of this. Human Love, Will never last. IT WILL FAIL. Never base ur relationships on human love! Its not just a spiritual question. its been proven by scientist that romantic love is a byproduct of chemicals releasing in the human brain. And it last from 12 to 13 months. Congrats to anyone who starts finding their partner (excuse me) revolting after that time frame. Been there, done that. Dont EVER want to go thru that again.
So what shall we commit ourselves to? i still stand by my faith and stress the importance of The Love of God. Not my Love for him. But His love for me or rather, us; in time to come. I still got questions to ask. and many unanswered. But i know the answers will present themselves in due time. =)

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2006-06-03T07:07:00.000-07:00

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Another fantastic day at archery(Ruuuight) i look like a lobster again.. im gonna be mistaken for one at any seafood restaurant soon man.. Sigh.. today's trng siong.. partly cos i pushed myself to it.. dang.. no idea what came over me in the morning.. it was like the dark side came over.. Face was totally black.. guess it was the acculmilation of stress from tests and the pressure to need to shoot well.. i took score 3 times.. with only minute improvements in each round.. dang it.. max score i managed to squeeze out was 211.. was damn shagged by then.. couldnt shoot for the rest of the day.. hm.. Thank God for yazid.. he somehow manage to bring my day arnd by lecturing me..

What a week.. 3 tests down.. i think i managed to scrape a pass for materials.. heads gonna blow with the amnt of info inside this week.. i blanked out for the last qns for materials.. and i studied that damn thing for at least 30 mins.. sigh..

Looking forward to the hols.. gonna catch up on sleep. Gonna catch up with frens.. and im gonna be there for frens who need help. Thats a promise. whoever u are.

Looking forward to service tml.. im spiritually drained..

Praise the Lord. Hallelujah.

Im moulting.

2006-05-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

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Woot. its official. im gonna put any sunburnt, moulting-season snake to shame. My face isnt short of little flakes of burnt skin falling like the november snow in Europe. ARGH... damn sun.. waaaaaaaaaay too hot.. i poked my head out and it insisted on leaving me a souvenior on saturday.

Well, camp seems ok. Went to school after service on friday. Seemed like i missed out on seeing leonard dressed up as a girl.. lol... according to him, he even had to carry his "boobs" to prevent them from dropping.. lol.. Hm.. was a Rather eventful night.. Seemed to have kneed Jie in the a**... woops... SRY JIE!!! >.< Im really what the malays call tidor mati : "To sleep like the dead" Couldnt help it.. was tossing and turning to find myself a comfortable position.. Was REAL tired by the time i could find a comfy position.. According to jie, i was like a leech.. lol... constantly moving towards the warmth.

Awoke the next morning to the fresh cold morning air... First time i saw the field set so early in the morning.. haha.. my first impression was some crazy bugger set up board to shoot over night.. lol.. Had PT next.. Felt good running in the morning.. Played tennis next with jie, ahmad and leo.. in which the latter sent the ball flying out of court, and onto the bus stop outside.. haha.. reminded me of what i was like when i first started.. Next was the coaching session.. hm.. had feedback i added too much detail and bored everyone to sleep.. i think it was more of exhaustion than anything else.. lol.. Damn that sun.. I looked like a lobster.. no correction. even a boiled lobster would even envy my LOVELY shade of hue.

Went for service at NCC on sunday.. managed to bring dad along for his first service there.. was hoping he might be able to enjoy the service there and Praise the Lord, he definitely did. First time i've seen slaining also.. Truly felt the dwelling of the holy spirit within me during the whole process. The peace i felt at the end of the service.. Fantastic... Nothing beats the fulfilment the Lord gives me! Jie, are u free this sunday? if u are, haha.. i think u know what im about to ask you.. =) Just consider it kz? ur bro here aint gonna force you.. =)

I just bore witness to another of The Lord's miracle yesterday. i shant list the details here for its too long.. and hard to explain the magnificent ways the Lord performs his work..

Well, thats about it for now... Its back to mugging for the 3 tests next week.

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2006-05-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

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Well, what a day.. really had fun at archery. Managed to group well even tho it was at 10m.. haha.. real ego booster. Had fun with the mini compy.. next week, 30m compy! haha.. Yea.. Jie and i were trashing the rest lol.. XP Feels damn good now.. Form seems to be working right finally.. Woot! Leaving everything in God works wonders.. i left my crappy shooting form in his hands if u all are wonderin.. And he makes what is Natural, Supernatural. My God is a Good God!! haha..

Hm. Batam trip was rather useful i'll say. Helped alot in techniques of singing.. hope the choir benefitted. Most imptly, i think, was that i learnt the purpose of a choir. it isnt to sing well to awe the audience. Its to become that golden bridge that will link the congregration's Spirit to the Lord to receive his blessing. Learnt to hand everything to the Lord. I live each day with no worries, knowing that he is the captain of my salvation. haha.. Many people have been telling me that i sound like a priest.. LoLz.. Well, no harm in praising my Lord to the highest right? For only through The cross of Jesus Christ shall we receive Life. And Life More Abundantly.

How can i forget i got dead drunk too? (Well, according to frens and eye witness reports that is. the author still inisits he wasnt drunk) 1 barcadi coke, 1 long island tea and 1 tequilla shot. That was all it took to kill me.. haha, Face was red as a baboon's ass. Couldnt walk in a straight line and i think i would have counted 1 to 10 when u asked me to recite the ABCs, much less backwards. Thanks to all my peeps who were there for me in my stupeour. Vaguely remember someone slapping me and telling me to shut up. lol cant remember who. tonuge must have been damn loose.

School. Lolz.. this semester is gonna be one hell of an expierence. Higher maths, Materials, FYP. Hope ill be able to go through all that with my sanity.. haha.. Everything's so difficult now.. no more like the previous 2 years of honeymoon. Time to wake up my idea and start mugging like well, a mugger. haha...

New Creation Church. A New lease of Life. funny how God works. One of my new year resolution this year was to do daily devotion. And God provides. He provided me with such a momumental impact on my first visit to NCC that since that day, i've been craving for his word and revealations everyday. I've never felt so fulfilled and WHOLE in my life before. Much more than any material wealth i've received. He's the only One i seek and praise. That One who died on the cross for me so that i may enjoy his blessings and stand righteous before God for he has redemned all of my sins. For as long as i shall live, I shall Testify your Love.

Live By Faith And Not By Sight.

New Creation Church.

2006-04-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

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Well, just came back from NCC. i think it was an absolutely wonderful expierence. i never felt more in tuned with worshipping The Lord. Friends were nonchalent about it, but i think it was fanatastic. Everything from the sermon to the singing. first time i left a service feeling so rejeuvanated and awake. Learn to trust in the Lord in everything u do. give 100% faith. Worship Jesus. and righteousness and blessings will PURSUE you. not the other wat arnd.

I trust you Lord. I hand all my life's decisions to you. I shall fret no more about life's mundanities for i know you will provide me.

The Lord is my shepard, i shall not be in want.

It's back to school.

2006-04-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

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Well, six weeks passes in the blink of an eye.. Attachment is over just like that. Damn.. im starting to have nostalgic pangs for the life there.. i totally miss everyone there.. every single uncle and auntie.. not to mention joanne and Xiu Feng.. those 2 gals kept me company thru out those 6 weeks and i must say im really gonna miss their daily crapping.. haha.. Had a fantastic last day by having macs at the tool store with uncle tong.. then went to PS to take neoprints.. think i wrecked most photos.. ahha.. Got an A for my overall grading... Thank God.. learnt loads there.. gonna be useful for my final year in poly.. no doubt.
I've been away too long man.. Feel really dissapointed in myself for not being there for my tu di.. Well, im gonna make sure she's gonna turn out to be a top archer among her year. Im gonna put my heart into it this semester. Leonard too.. im gonna try my best to make Clement, Leonard and Shi Min top performing archers. AS for myself, haha.. well, im gonna do my best. Equipment is working great now. im gonna get used to my new tab and perform just as well. Setting aside every wednesday to train up my form. Hopefully can get that board signed off.. hehe.. trng everyday at home wouldnt be a dream then.. Droolz....
Anyway, school starting soon. Think its gonna be one crazy semester. But hey, BRING IT ON. im gonna do well this sem. i just know i can. and i will. For my future as a defence science researcher. For my future family, and other stuff. =] Thinking of futhering my education overseas. thinking of Imperial College if possible. Local Uni, well, just doesnt appeal to me. Its degrees are just too under rated. Unless by some miricle, i manage to get into NTU.. then maybe.. MAYBE ill consider. Sigh.. so much that i cant put down.. im definetely gonna be home sick.. not for the country... Flag waving patrioism is best left behind in the bunkers of Hitler.. haha.. gonna miss friends, relatives and THE FOOD. haha. sigh.. when the time comes, it'll come. dont go bothering abt it now.
Well, Good Friday just passed, and i must say that i felt Thankful for the everything the Lord has done for mi. Guided me thru everything i thought i couldnt do. Prayed for forgiveness. Nearly cried at just thinking of the number of times i let him down and sinned against him.*looks at the time* Well, its the Third Day already. The Lord has Risen today. Everyone should throw down their bundle of sins at the cross and rejoice for we're all forgiven. Those with problems, trust in the Lord. Have undying faith. He will guide you thru every dark patch in Life so you can learn more about him. He never forsakes or leaves you.
Sigh. Long story.. dont feel like typing all the details down. Kinda blinded as to waht direction to head now. I want to, but i don't want to. argh.. im typing crap.. haha.. I'll just leave it the way it is i guess. No expectations or obligations just yet. *Concentrate on what's more impt Sam. You can do it.* =]

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2006-03-26T06:27:00.000-08:00

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Well, here it goes again.. feeling bored and emotions building up again.. feeling really sucks so i hope pen-ing it down helps. What are feelings? are we sure that what we feel is what is right? Still cant get over her.. every thing she says or does creates an impact on me. no matter how big or small.. geez.. Girls just have that effect over guys i think. I pray for strength to carry on. Strength to push aside all these mundanities and Live a God glorifying life for now. The temptation of a relationship is strong. Too strong in fact. But i know that my Love for God is stronger. Only he can tide me across any difficulties i have. In times of helplessness, he grants me strength. in times of Fear, he hugs me frm behind. Comforting me.
Is staying single in this society now really that difficult? every where i go, ppl are telling me abt this girl and that girl or this guy and that guy. How many ppl do u know that had their heart broken because of relationships? Girls and Boys alike? Too many to count. Read the book "Why men cant lie, and why women cant read maps." i think its an excellent book. i rank it up there with the sensational "I kissed dating goodbye" Gives insight to how our brain thinks and the reason we seek relationships. Mere physical and emotional attachment just isnt enuff to keep couples together. they gotta be committed to serving God tgt. And be committed to starting a family. IMHO. that shld be the core reason couples marry. Of course, dun get me wrong. I dun shun physical and emotional attachment. i think thats the main reason couples get tgt in the first place. Besides.. i dun plan on Kids immediately after marriage. Er ren shi jie sounds cool.. hehe =D

Never gonna forget my 19 b'day

2006-03-19T07:47:00.000-08:00

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Dang man.. Archery chalet was damn fun. Great way to spend my weekend. Trying to jot all the memories down as fast as possible.. dun wanna forget a single moment of it.

17 - 2006

Hm. rushed down to the chalet after work.. really excited to spend my weekend with the archery peeps. Managed to meet ahmad at pasir ris interchange and headed down to the chalet together. Basket.. all the year 1s not there.. had to wait 20 friggin minutes for them to come back and unlock the chalet door. note to self. when a girl says 10mins, it means 20 to 30 mins.. haha.. hm.. went to have dinner with ahmad b4 meeting with the rest to head down to the arcade... the place i blew off most of my cash.. haha.. Played 3 games of pool with ahmad first.. won 2 but i fucked up the last round by hitting in the black ball tgt with the white ball.. Argh.. Basket!! haha.. Ahmad.. gotta hand it to u man.. Pro Driver.. dun mess with this guy when playing daytona.. haha.. Had tonnes of fun drifting and knocking ppl into walls and swearing like noboy's business lol.. rest of the night was relatively quiet.. with the exception of more car destruction on the PS 2.. haha..

18-03-2006 My B'day!!
Well.. guess i slept like a pig till the next day.. woke up with the pillow i was sharing with clement in between my legs.. lol wonder how it ended up there.. sry dude! Shi min and Sj woke up with a pretty bad cough.. in fact, shi min had a slight fever.. went down to cheers tgt to get her some panadol arnd early afternoon. thank god she felt better. Headed down to the beach after that for some quiet time to think abt how far i progressed on in my 19th year of life. Had a crazy time taking photos with the year 1 archers there. Shi Min reall PRO man.. wrote a gigantic SP ARCHERY 2006 on the sand haha.. hm.. arnd evening, we went back to the chalet as the bbq was starting. Bk came down arnd 7 to 8 after work.. damn it must suck working weekends. Gave me my gift.. Jamie's kitchen by Jamie oliver... damn touched by his gesture.. well, the good will didnt end there.. Woei perng bought me a cake without me knowing and shi min gave it to me with everyone arnd me singing happy birthday.. haha.. Really a night i will never ever forget. Well, that was just the mere tip of the ice berg. the icing of the cake was to come. Everyone dragged me to the bed and started to tao pok me.. lol.. even the chalet's bed couldnt hold the weight and crack at its supports.. ahahahah. Went home after that.. Dad made me drive home even tho i was tired.. Navigated thru the TPE with my eyes nearly closing lol.. Sigh... ill never forget this Birthday for as long as i live. Truly one of the most memoriable... Thanks guys.. SP ARchers Rox My sox!!!!!!!!!!!

So far...

2006-02-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

Well, 3 papers down.. im feeling pretty happy abt it cos that means less to study now.. haha.. mechanics left, but im feeling pretty confident abt it.. just chiong for the next 2 days and it shld be fine. I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST! 16 pts.. but who the heck cares man. First time pass i happy liao! hehe.. i was pretty lucky.. Tester let me pass because i had "good control of the car". hm.. i could actually get 10.. 4 pts cos he told me to right turn a tad too late.. and i ended up turning too late.. and ended up in the wrong lane.. lol.. another 2 pts was due to my nervousness.. turn the steering wheel when i was stationary during parking. In fact, when we returned, i thought i had failed cos he didnt even test me on my E brake. lol. Official license coming in this week.. i can finally bin that piece of paper.. hm.. maybe i shld laminate it instead.. haha..
Went ice skating yesterday with my 2 daughters and shinz. had a darn good time there.. arse still hurts tho.. haha.. knew i was too ambitious when i wanted to attempt a 360 degree turn.. haha.. Stupid ying.. ur supose to just GRAB the person when ur playing catching.. not PUSH. And damn can Yun scream.. could hear her from one side of the arena to the other.. kena ppl shouting at her for screaming too loud too.. haha.. Yings, i gotta hand it to u. a Woman's mind sure is unfathomable. I guess ur "Merticulous" planning paid off. your "Outing" sure was a sucess you scheming and malcious girl. =P
Sigh.. i start work next week.. hopefully ill enjoy it as much as possible. really looking foward to learning loads and earning loads too.. hehe.. hope got OT pay. Well, ill stop here. Looking foward to our "double Date" this friday.. haha..

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2006-02-15T04:10:00.000-08:00

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Well, well, guess its time for me to list down 8 stuff i look for in my future girl.
Target: Female( like duh.. im not Gay like many think i am u know. =P)

1.) Sporty. Being sporty is impt to me. Don't really like a coach potato. ALso means she probably has a great figure(hehe) and is health conscious. More opportunities to do things together too.

2.) Luuuurrrrrvvvveee to cook and eat. This is a MUST. Throw me any girl who only eats organic stuff and ill prolly throw her out. haha. jk. i like a girl who enjoys her char kuay teow and laksa. =)

3.)Eyes that talk. Okay.. this is a lil difficult to find. But it'll be cool if the girl has lovely eyes that convey messages without words. Imaginning the possibility of communication without words.. damn thats just cool. And Sweet.

4.)Spritually strong. IMPORTANT. the 2 of us must be equally strong in our faith or we'll pull each other away from serving the Lord. Added bonus if she Serves in Church too.

5.)Understanding. Don't want a girl that expects me to be on call 24/7.. thats just downright outgrageous. Understanding means that she should be able to accept that some things have to come before her. tho not always.

6.)Kinky. Ok... i know wad u guys are thinking. This part comes after marriage. I mean honestly, who wants their marriage to be as dead as a doornail right? It helps to strengthen husband/wife bonds too anyway. =)

7.)Attractive physically. Looks are definitely important. no matter how many ppl sat its not. she doesnt have to be drop dead gorgeous, just relatively attractive. Eg: Nice eyes, shoulder length hair, slim and toned body( not too fat, not too thin), slightly chubby so nice to hug. ;)

8.)Personality. Hm.. hard to put my finger on this.. varies from time to time.. someone whom i can probably click with? someone who can appreciate all genres of music and the arts? someone bubbly and outgoing.. someone i can look for in times of emotional support. Someone who will give me the chance to be decisive when we go out etc.. Too many stuff to write lah.

Anyway.. im gonna break the chain right here.. no one to ask since everyone i know who has a blog already has this chain.. haha.

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2006-02-11T09:54:00.000-08:00

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Quick update.. Exams starting soon.. started mugging already.. but not to my full potential.. Looking foward to EXAMS!!! ahahahaha.. Finally able to see how much i know in this whole semester.. Aiming at least 5 As.. Grandad promise 500 bucks if got 5As.. lol.. droolz... New carbon laminated limbs and a beiter Long stab, here i come.. hehe.. Speaking of archery.. really been wokring my ass off every saturday trying to get my form right.. still plucking alot.. Thank the Lord.. finally managed to pinpoint wad was wrong today. Managed to find out the true way of working witht he clicker, and the best way to release for my form.. Yaz.. thanks alot bro.. Finally got my plunger up and running.. realised that all i had to do was insert the allen key and tilt it to one side to get enuff grip to turn the screw.. ahaha.. My last end today felt so good.

Hm.. life in general is pretty much ok now.. not really stressed out by anything. learnt to embrace the ups and downs of life as expierence and it felt it shaped me into a better human being.. Ideals changed and after watching the movei Huo Yuan Jia, i think its not wise dwelling in the past. Move Foward and live proud. Met with any mishaps? Take things in ur stride and shrug it off. Only then can we be imprevious to insults and learn to appreciate those around you. Haha.. Today i made a new addition to my 'family'.... Bernice jie!! haha.. First time in my life i become xiao di sia.. must learn to get used to it.. hehe.. =P

NTU shoot coming up.. waiting for my AC Navigators to come in.. most probably buy from Terris from CDANS.. Mr Wee went florida.. nto cmng back till 23 feb.. sianz.. dun want to do my business, i go else where lor.. cheaper also.. haha.. hopefully can get everything by next week then next saturday tune finish everything. SP archers are gonna rule the competition. Accept no subsitutes. =)

Live Proud. Jiao Au De Huo Xia Qu.

EXAMS SOON!!!

2006-01-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

Exams are but a couple of weeks away.. and i haven really
officially started studying yet.. dang it.. im aiming high for this semester..

Sigh.. im aiming at least a 3.8 for this semester.. and i know with enough hard work i can do it.. looking back at 2005, it was a pretty short year.. the time really passed fast.. it just seems like ystd i was counting down to 2005.. im getting older.. haha.. 2006 is now, new resolutions made, and i hope ill be able to keep to them.. I hope to make 2006 my most spiritual year. i want to serve God more and be contented in wad i have in life.. anyway, on a lighter note, i went to KL a couple of weeks ago.. and all i gotta say is that it was DAMN FUN! going with choir mates was definitely more fun than gg alone.. haha.. Genting was cool.. literally... temperature was like 18 or 17.. weather was damn nice.. and the view was even more breathless.. the theme park there was fun too man.. so many rides.. too bad didnt take the one that launched u vertically into the air.. ahha.. (not i dun dare.. its no time kz?)
Next day went down to KL.. sunway lagoon was pretty fun too.. the water rides were not plentiful, but the quality was good.. the girls had fun screaming their heads off.. the fake beach was probably the most interesting part of the trip.. or rather, wad happened there.. lol.. for some reason, the girl started taking each other's clothes off lol.. (down to their swimsuits.. no more =P) shldne have been there.. cos they stripped me down to my trunks next... -.-||| Loved that night in Kl.. first time my dad brought me and the whole grp to a bar lol... had a great time laughing, singing and rinking the night away lol.. Absolutely loved hui yun's strawberry cream cocktail.. unique and sweet creation. "sweet drink for a sweet person" im quoting directly from the most BHB person.. none other than hui yun herself.. haha..

Oh, for all those singles out there, i highly reccomend this book if u want to know what a relationship is about. go check out Joshua Harris's "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Changed my life, Changed my perception, but more imptly, it Strengthened my faith.

New Year Resolutions
1.) Devout my life to God
2.) Be more active in church.
3.)Give guidance and advice to my friends when they need it.
4.) Excel in school, 3.8 this and next sem
5.) Excel in archery. Gold for Team competitions, at least a bronze for individual.
6.) Train up my juniors into the good archers in the club.
7.) Value my friends.
8.) Get the choir to have bible study
9.) Bond the choir tightly.
10.) Hot Bod. =P

Loner, Signing outta his lonely diary..

Quiz.....

2005-12-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

Ah wad the heck.. im a sucker for quizzes anyway.. here

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Wow.

2005-12-02T05:27:00.000-08:00

Woo.. been a while since i updated my blog.. been pretty busy and much has happened in this time span. Cant bring myself to fully comprehend what has happened but i'll try to jot down what i've been feeling. well, got sick 2 days back.. inflamed throat which brought about my flu and fever.. still feeling sickly as im writing this.hope to be well ASAP.. too many things to do. too much school work, too many emotions, too little time for training and more imptly, too little time for God. Our Father works in very funny ways dont u think? i would have never expected that the one person to approach me and give me guidance when i really needed it was my cousin. He just got to know God and is way ahead of me spiritually already. it puts me to shame and at the same time allows me to marvel at the way God works. He too was having relationship problems and gave some real good advice to me. He passed me a book entitled "Boy meets Girl" by Joshua Harris. I've just finished reading the book, and honestly, i've never felt so shameful of myself over my relationship before. It helped give meaning to the word 'Relationship', it defined it. Looking back, my relationship was sure based on all the wrong reasons. it was'nt God centred. It was self centred and selfish. I know all this talk could just make some people say that im using God as excuse to end my relationship, but i dont care. i only need to explain to him and no one else. i've taken a new outlook on relationships and i've still got questions to answer. Looking back, i was so immatured and i still was'nt spiritually ready to lead her in a God glorifying relationship.

i need a timeout.. God, be there for me.. i humbly seek Patience to see your wonderful plan for me unfold like a flower bud. I seek Wisdom, so i may lead myself in the right direction.

I'll end with this quote: Real love is always fated. It has been arranged before time. It is the most merticulously prepared of coincidences. And Fate of course, is simply a secular term for the Will of God and Coincidence of His Grace.

Eunuch?? Wth..

2005-11-06T00:08:00.000-08:00

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Lol.. Love quiz.

2005-10-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Personality test

2005-10-21T08:46:00.000-07:00

You approach life in pursuit of understanding. You achieve this through searching for principles that clarifies how things work. You prize knowledge, intelligence and efficiency. Being logical and critical, you make excellent autonomous solution-providers. You are challenged by complicated problems, and will spare no effort to investigate them. Prior to solving a problem, you ask piercing questions and test the suggestions of others objectively, so as to create radical but rational methods. In fact, you thrive best in situations where innovation is valued especially if it contradicts established norms. You see possibilities and will adapt as things unfold but are flexible only up to the point where you have to deviate from your principles. Personality-wise, you are introverted and detached as the external world is less significant than your own inner realities. You value privacy and must have your times of solitude so as to refresh and re-energize yourself.

Potential Strengths

Analytical skills
Problem-solving at systems level
Technical knowledge & expertise
Adaptability
Conceptual design

Popular Occupations

Architect
Economists
Financial analyst
Financial planner
Pharmacist
Researcher
Creative writer
Artists & entertainers
Computer professional
Social scientists

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2005-10-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

damn man. its amazing how music can affect ur thoughts. its just amazing how different genere of music can affect what u think. you dont need classical pianist like chopin to put u in the romantic mood. u can rely on some boy bands to do the same.the overall effect is the same. i've been listening to slow songs these few days. so no prizes tothose who guess how im feeling now. the only people who manage to chase away the blues are my friends. when im alone. my thoughts are running wild. just came out of bathing, and i swear, i cant get the tune of bittersweet symphony outta my head. theres just something about the sashaying of violins and the incredibly difficult task of deciphering what the heck that guy is singing, but still, its clinging onto me like a baby koala clings onto its mother. its so melonchaly yet so catchy. it appeals to me. it sets me to the mood to think abt my life so far. honestly, i've never shown my sad, emotional side to anyone before. No one. cause no one can truely appreciate the fine art of being well, sad. the reason why i appear so happy and jovial is because i enjoy it. i know this sounds contradicting , but i dont care. seeing people laugh and smile make me feel good. i really wouldnt mind if my mission in life was to make as many people laugh as possible. because theres nothing wrong with humour. a simple joke brightens up one's day, its the pinnicle of showing care and concern to those around you. because u really do right? theres more than just enjoying each other's company every week, or every day. if u truly care abt someone, be it ur spouse, best mate in life or just a regular friend, make him or her laugh. i seriously hope u will find as much joy as i do. in this life of mine, i've been trying so hard to fit in. in secondary school, believe it or not, i was a quiet person in school. i only talk to those i know. i was the target of most scrutiny because of my weight. after going thru an expierence like that, i truly treasure my friends around me cos they were the ones that gave me comfort in the times i need. now, after being conditioned by tampines JC where they turned me into one crazy extrovert, i want to do the same that my friends did for mi. cos at the end of it all, u have ur friends and family only right? thats why i hold those friends in class, church and especially SPAC so close to my heart. you guys rock my world. honestly. i cant imagine my world without my friends. it will become desolate, solitude, a wasteland. Right here, Right now, i wanna say thanks to all my friends out there. jeez.. theres so much in life to do.. what if im only gonna have 100 years to live? sry put thats what im listening to.. i cant stop imagining my future, how it will be like, etc. and when i talk abt future, im pretty sure close friends of mine know what im talking abt.. im like a lost sheep now. i dont know what to do. what does she mean by doing all these? quite frankly, im numb already. im not feeling anything. a feeling of nonchanlency has overwhelmed me whenever i think abt that subject. sigh. i have everything i need and everything i want. ( er neglect the ACC, Extreme limbs and leave them outside the picture for now =P) damn songs corrupting what im thinking.. gonna stop for now.. sry.. shld have added a small note at the top fo the blog to advice a dose of caffine before reading on. till then.
This is a loner signing outta his diary.

My bow finally swung!

2005-10-13T05:36:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. after acquiring an extender and an eli damper, my bow finally is able to swing nicely. damn it feels good.. my bow is finally begining to work for me.. love the set up. ouch.. damn string. keeps cutting into my chin. hurts like crap now. feels like its plucking hair away from my goatee everytime i release.. and ppl! pls! its my God damn goatee.. dont tell me to shave it.. im proud of it and loving it.. wahahahah. damn clickr.. damn shagged now just after 2 attempts of straining my back muscle just to make it go thru the clicker.. phew.. think im gonna adjust my tiller soon. increase my poundage to 38.. wanna get ready for compy on this december. *crosses fingers* hope nothing in church clashes with it.. or else i can die sia.. i wanna win smth back.. haha.. sigh.. the holidays are finally turning out to be some what enjoyable.. hehe.. cook book coming along fine.. thanks Alvin and jie.. Salmon baked rice. -.-|| haha.. seriously, i didnt take offence to ur " ji siao " infact, ill cook just that.. abit tricky, but it should be buttered rice with dill topped with salmon cream sauce flavoured with dill, lemon and oregano, then popped in the oven to melt the mozzerella and pamersan cheese on top of it.. enuff to make ur mouth water? hehe.. it shld.. will think of ways to improve it more.. till then,
This is a loner, signing outta his diary.

Racheal is IN DA HOUSE!

2005-10-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

Yeah man.. i got my bow already.. went today. thank God man. tml MR and Mrs wee going on holiday again.. haha.. just made it in time. here the specs of mynew bow.
Hoyt Matrix Riser
Challenger Craft 36/68
Easton Platinums
Cartel plunger
Cartel Magnetic arrow rest
Cartel Magnetic stand
Cartel Triple Stabiliser
haha.. hopefully can stretch the string by this saturday and ill be off bringing my shooting to a whole new dimension! haha.. Dad, thanks a billion.. i cant say how thankful i am. And i gotta hand it to ya for being able to make Mrs Wee laugh.. no one in the club can do that except u.. haha..
Loner Signing out.

Racheal is IN DA HOUSE!

2005-10-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

Its OVER!!!!!

2005-09-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

Finally.. exams are over!! woot.. think i did fairly well for everything.. hoping to do better than last semester.. haha.. wishful thinking.. =P anywayz.. got stuff to do liaoz since its the hols.. gonna catch up wif my TPJC mates.. hopefully some cat high peeps too.. been too darn long.. yeah.. started wif my cookbook already! first item inside is anchovies pasta... haha.. so much to write yet no idea where to start.. leave a tag if u want something included.. thanks guys & gals.. gonna start training tml le.. starting it off with swimming.. *looks at tummy* yup.. definetly gonna hafta start.. heh.. driving.. pretty ok so far.. got the same instructor for 3 lessons.. shere luck.. haha now completed a third of stage 2 liaoz.. by tml i think half can finish le.. haha.. MAKSIM'S back.. A New World.. album not bad.. cept i think its more of piano accompanying than piano being the main instrument.. but still some fantastic pieces none the less.. Archery.. sighz.. DAD!!! dun keep pushing the date further back and giving me excuses.. bah.. i wanna pay half myself.. hope to get by next week.. but im not gonna try and push my luck too far..sighz.. anywayz, archery peeps! when do u guys wanna have an outing soon? miss u guys way too much.. heh >.< till then, Cya peeps..
Loner Signing outta his lonely diary

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2005-09-04T09:07:00.000-07:00

Woot.. been a week plus since i update.. this is gonna be the last update for a while.. the next update will be after exams.. or maybe during exams to vent how frustrating things are.. basket.. time passes so fast.. so very soon, half my time in poly will be over.. jeez.. i still miss sec school life haha.. well, quite a bit has happened, lets start with school. Hmz, guess exams are coming soon.. too soon for comfort.. really gotta start studyign already.. 1 weeks time i got my Inspection, Engineering design and i gotta ahnd in my RWP report.. and a week after that, its my Industrial engineering, Engineering materials and Engneering maths exams.. sianz but look on the bright side! its one month break after that yeah!! haha..
Hm.. archery.. didnt get to train this week.. next week my form sure crapped up liaoz.. haha.. finally getting my bow soon. Hoyt Matrix plus i think a Samick Universal carbon limbs.. yeap.. gonna use my october hols to start training for C class.. October holidays.. hm.. so much to do.. Physical training.. gonna try my best to jog & swim every alternate day.. i want those 6 packs.. =P plus daily routine excercises. yup.. then, im gonna compile everything i know into a cookbook!! haha.. not for sale tho.. just so that in my older age, i wouldnt forget how to make all those yummy stuff. Driving.. argh.. i miss driving.. sure gonna cock up my turning etc.. im gonna set my mind on completing my driving and acquire my license by year end!! haha.. of course, since i have time, it shld be spent on pampering right? haha.. no prizes on how its gonna be =) Study hard dear.. and leave the realxation part to me.. haha.. must make it to uni kz? intensive study le.. must set my mind to it.. Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto no 2 in C minor and Rhapsody on a theme of paganini.. very nice pieces.. go get the CD.. played by Lang Lang the chinese pianist.. anywayz.. its late liaoz.. gtg..
Loner signing outta his lonely diary
ILMLP!!!!! 4EVA
*YaRmAnnN*

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2005-08-23T08:14:00.000-07:00

Woo~~ time for an update.. bern chasing me for one liaoz.. haha.. hmz.. not much happening.. now its the mugging season.. Sem exams in another 4 weeks time.. not enuff time liaoz.. haha.. i think im gaining weight.. so long haven go out excercise liao.. just sitting my butt at home studying.. heh.. im sure gonna make use of my october hols man.. complete driving by oct, compile the recipies i know into a book, and if possible, tune my plunger!! lolz.. still no news on that one.. i'll have to see how.. hmz.. still got time now.. GO BB DO ONLINE QUIZ!! lolz.. ciaoz!

Sad SAd Dae....

2005-08-06T08:11:00.000-07:00

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GOD DAMN.. GOD DAMN... WHY?????????????? damnit.. i did fairly well for the shoot out.. why gimme such a nicee score if u dont want me to go????? Christ. 291 for 36 arrows.. and only to find out that i cant go in the night by my parents.. crap sia... i even got a place in the team liao..... ARGH!!!!!!! guys... im so sry.. i really am.. im crying as i type this.. sry for letting u guys down.. i know i shldnt be doing this but its a choice between "God and your teammates" as wad my mum put. i had to choose choir over u guys.. i had no choice.. as much as i wanna join ur ranks and shoot beside u, i cant. ill be supporting u guys mentally... =) damn.. Korn's "I Did my time" helps.. nothing like a lil metal to help u vent ur fustrations.. haha.. "I FEEL THE ANGER CHANGING ME" wahahah..

Woo~~ Time to update..

2005-07-26T07:01:00.000-07:00

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woot.. much has happened in the recent weeks where i didnt post. CSSC duty was fun.. haha.. but only if got someone there right bro? hehe..
Finally i got assigned my new Samick 30 Pound Bow. Rachael!! haha.. dun get jealous princess.. she will never replace u in my heart. (= heh.. hope now can qualify for PESTA. anywayz, time to move on..
Harry Potter!! damn good book.. lotsa parts i dun understand too lolz.. but too chim already.. but i know the last book gonna be good.. Finally.. CAD/CAM, Engineering Design(F*** ED) , Eng. Maths GEMs and my presentation for RWP finish liaoz.. now got one week break.. wonderful to sleep for more than 6 hrs again.. wahahaha..
Class chalet was fun.. the night at the beach was so beautiful and scenic.. wish u were there dear.. wanted to hug u and watch the stars.. sighz.. heh.. anywayz, Gratz Bro.. The world seems like a nicer place to live in all of a suden eh? haha.. hope u 2 lovebirds will cherish each other forever.
Went to Bern's house on tuesday.. had fun spending like 2 hrs in the kitchen cooking.. haha.. Good Food, Good Company, wad else can anyone else ask for? dinner was great, but the company, Was the best.
Yup, i promised to dedicate more time to my princess this hols.. im gonan keep to it.. spent the whole afternoon today wif her.. shopped at popular, then went to taka to makan Yoshi b4 gg to orchard library to study.. haha.. cannot concerntrate sia someone.. always ka chao.. we'll try that recipie one day dear.. Sure can make it taste like the honey chicken at the Cafe.
Alrighty, thats all for now.. come back to jot down sooner or later.. CHIONG STUDY LIAOZ AH..

Worried...

2005-07-12T08:08:00.000-07:00

- Chopsticks -
dang it.. so much thigns to worry abt these few days.. even tho i just finished some tests, i got more coming up.. argh!! Engineering design and CAD/CAM practical coming up.. then more exams after the exam.. argh.. so stressed out now.. better stop playing games and start studying my pants off already.. haiz.. when my string coming in? im worried i wont be able to get the chance to use my 30 pound bow for pesta sukan.. i wanna shoot!!! haha.. i guess 20/8 still ok? haha.. better start trng wif my 20 pound if i still cant get my 30 pound by this week.. argh.. score taking this 23 july.. i promise ya bro.. ill make it to pesta sukan and shoot wif ya for team event.. till then.. better start mugging.. haha... ~ciaoz~
I love my Princess.
~YarrRRMAnnn~~ =P

Hang in there!!!

2005-07-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

- Chopsticks -
Wow... seems like a tough week for alot of peeps out there.. especially the archery dudes and duddettes.. Hang in there guys! always remember to take a break after studying and dun stress urselves out too much yeah? my turn will come very soon.. haha.. soo many test coming up.. sianz.. better start studying.. looking forward to the darn one week break.. can spend more time wif my princess and more time on training.. ahah.. First driving lesson tml!!1 woot... wonder how it'll be like.. haha.. hope i dun crash into anyone lolz.. heres a tip frm mi.. if u guys feel stressed out, try jogging.. long distances.. sweat out ur stress and enjoy the lack of oxygen to ur brain.. works for mi.. hope it works for u.. oh yeah.. Dun hold back on sweet stuff like chocolates.. they are more beneficial to ur health than u think.. If life aint sweet enuff for ye, make it sweeter. Eat sweets. haha.. if u guys need some sort of a moral booster, u can always call on mi to whip up a lil smth for u guys yea? HONEY!! if ur reading this, i LOVE ya.. dun think too much abt ur results kz? just make it to uni and i can breath easy.. haha...

Boring....

2005-06-29T00:02:00.000-07:00

- Chopsticks -
Bleah.. now at materials lab.. eunice not here yet.. stuck vin and javier here.. trying to do IE but stuck.. argh.. leme write abt wad happened recently in the pass week or so.. hm.. well, went to jakarta. not exactly the nicest place on earth.. roads not painted, rubbish everywhere.. at night, when the tide is high, the moonsoon drainage overflows lol.. there's ppl walking abt the HIGHWAY trying to sell newspapers and other stuff while ur DRIVING. theres also beggers.. lotsa them beggin from car window to car window. i mean.. crime is so rife there that all the cars have their windows tinted black to prevent any one frm seeing them. jeez.. i was taking a cab when one man holding a rod knocked on the driver's window demanding money.. RIGHT ON FRONT OF OUR EYES!! sheesh.. but other than that, i guess it was still ok.. the wedding went fine.. dinner was ok too.. quite a grand occasion. haha.. hm.. gonna get my wife soon.. Either KAP Winstar/Challenger Carbon, or Hoyt Matrix/M1 Limbs.. most likely Winstar combi with more add ons such as stabiliser and sidesteps and better sights. yup.. hope to get arnd sep to october... just ran 5 click 2 days ago too.. damn.. my first 5 click.. i cud almost die after running but i did it!! haha.. gonna challenge myself to run 10 next hehe.. must thank my cousin for it.. haha..

Woo.. Exciting day...

2005-06-18T03:48:00.000-07:00

- Chopsticks -
Just got back frm compy.. damn fun, damn exciting, and very enriching.. If ur itching to know, yes, i did kinda well. not the best of my performance. but not too bad alreadyz.. haha.. at least this time its from top find down.. not like NUS outdoor, bottom find up.. haha.. got to know new ppl frm other schools.. Kenny frm TP was this cool dude who helped alot in mental training for mi.. thansk dude!! screwed up a couple of shots by fishtailing which landed me some whites and black, but the general shot was placed on the red. haha.. Cheer up Bern and Sze! no need to fret over this.. we didnt have proper equipment, so not to worry! haha.. no more trng using pins and cards lol... Congrats to Yaz. This Compy's title "Jing Pian Tai" goes to you. haha.. Rock on Dude!!( Dont u even think of going over to the dark side!) and to BK.( *Nchek* More X than me lah..).
After the compy, we had cake to celebrate Ahmad's, Jeremy's and Wei Yi's b'day.. happy belated/birthday peeps! haha... Sze 'Creamed' ahmad also lol.. sigh.. hopefully i'll be able to get the chance to shoot tml's team event.. till then, im gonna go hit the sack for a while.. too damn tired.. *Yawnz* gonna end a quote frm Mohammad Ali, Courtesy of Kenny. "In order to be the best, u have to think like the best. and if u cant, pretend to be."

I look like lobster today....

2005-06-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
wah paing eh.. the sun was relentless today man.. *read the title*.. was fun today, glad to see year 1s coming back after the previous trng session.. shows commitment frm them.. managed to train today.. think i spotted some mistakes.. better iron them out tml man.. haha.. YAZ!!! First guy in sub com to buy bow.. ironically also the very person who said he wanted to stick to Standard class forever.. Right.. ahahah.. Congrats bro.. 30 pound bow can gimme.. heh.. =P luckily no ultraman today.. or else everyone will 'pek chek' inclusive of mi..
Had some fun after everyone left.. 'Tao pok'-ing very fun leh.. haha.. Managed to get back to Ethan.. haha.. everytime shoot rubber band at me right?! hehe.. also did a mini 'Poly 50' haha.. hope the whole sub com will run the next Poly 50.
Hm, dearest went to do some CIP thing today.. no HP, no water also i heard.. hope everything ok for her.. haha.. most imptly, as long as she has fun.. hehe.. sounds cool tho. carrying cardboard arnd singapore to set up 'homes' to simulate the plight of those who suffered in the tsunami.. gives the people a rough idea of wads its really like in sri lanka.. hope it helps lossen the ol' purse strings.. haha.. alrighty.. im gonna get some chow.. till then, cya..
ILMLP
*YarrrrrMannnnnn*
Loner, Signing out.

Some Archery tips i compiled by reading...

2005-06-07T09:03:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Bah.. feeling bored now.. but i got a strong desire to blog down all that i know.. not alot.. and may not even help.. but here goes.. heck, may even serve as a reminder to mi lol.. haha..
Holding The Bow
1)When holding the bow, your hand placement should be the same as when u lean on a lamp post or smth similar to it
2)If ur not using a sling, use about 3 fingers to lightly hold the bow. DO NOT GRIP THE BOW. your Kuckles shld form a 45 degree angle.
3)Your Bow Arm should not be extremely straight. it should be slightly bent to provide stability after release.
4)Your Arm should be twisted to prevent injury frm the string. To do this, put ur fist to ur chest. straighten ur arm. thats how it shld be like.
5)Your Shoulder must always be down.
Drawing
1)When drawing, you should only use 3 fingers, which are the middle 3. the arrow should rest between the index and middle finger, and u must never grip the arrow using ur fingers.
2)Your fingers shld form a "Tiger Claw" shape arnd the arrow, and the string shld rest on the meaty joints of the finger.
3)Or, u can do a fingertip release.. more painful, but according to Yazid, aids in fishtailing
4)Do a predraw. this invloves pulling the bow slightly. before bringing the bow to eye level, and full drawing.
5)When at full draw, the string should be touching the middle of ur chin, and cutting ur nose into half. for more expierenced archers, they choose to anchor behind the nose for extra drawlength.
6)The anchoring point for most archers is below the chin.
7)After full drawing, try using ur back muscles by "squeezing" them together.
8) By the end of these, u shld have a shape of a perfect "T"
Releasing
This is the most impt part to mi because doing this worng, is equvilant to not doing any of the above..
1)While in the perfect 'T' position, release your fingers. Take note: DO NOT PLUCK, which involves ur hands moving sideways when releasing.
2)Your hands shld automatically move to somewhere arnd ur shoulder.
3)When releasing, be wary of the follow through. which means leaving ur bow arm in the original position after the shot.
Hopefully this helps any budding archers passing by.. i know its not much.. but hope it helps.. anything to add? just drop a comment.. =)

Tired Tired Tired...

2005-06-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Hm... second week and im ultimately shagged alreadyz.. so tiring.. every single lecture, there isnt a moment when i fall flat down on my pillow erm, tutorial worksheet for at least 5 seconds.. take today for example.. Cher wrote "Moulding" and i was copying notes.. then somehow, i ended up writing "Moleing" diaoz... lucky got some sweets to keep me awake.. nid to sleep soon le.. damn tired.. Bed so... Alluring... Argh!! in case anyone reading this is interested in knowing how archery is coming along, well, i guess everything is still ok ba.. got a new Cartel Red Finger Tab.. trying to get used to it by the compy.. i find i also shoot better with a proper target.. funny lolz.. anywayz, tts it for now.. my bed calling me already.. cannot resist... But still got tutorial to do sia!!! ARgh... @_@
This is a loner, signing outta his lonely diary..
ILMLP
*YarrrrMannnn*

School started!!

2005-06-02T08:56:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
School finally open le.. brought a happy excited heart there, brought a fustrated and stressed heart back on the first day.. diaoz.. suddenly everythign like so fast.. second day got homework liaoz.. first time in this 1 year plus lol... then no early break le.. lecture all the way.. sianz 1/2.. 3 hr sit until butt numb sia.. hm.. CCA week really revelaed the number of noobs this year.. guess its the dragon year and all.. explaining the number of newbies in school.. archery cca booth 1st day got 80+ dudes and dudettes le.. siao liao.. and today, thursday, we have close to 300 and counting.. dunno how club gonna handle it sia.. have to split le.. orientation this saturday.. hopefully can "kope" time out to train. this week has been cool so far.. seems like i pissed some ppl off, but i guess its ok.. Thank God things are smooth sailing between us now, and hope it stays this way.. hm.. have to study this month le.. and hard.. luckily got her to study wif moi.. =)
This is a loner, signing outta his diary.
ILMLP *YarrMannnnnn*

Weird Trng day..

2005-05-28T08:54:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Woooo.... hot day today.. still feeling slightly light headed frm the heat.. i look like a malay man.. haha.. 9 to 4 trng.. cant help it.. weather was horrid today.. so warm, humid and scorching.. sweating like crap just after a couple of ends.. learnt many things to improve form frm last trng.. which may explain why trng today like abit farni liddat.. for one.. thanks to woei perng, i found out that i didnt really full draw.. must start using back muscle liao.. thanks yaz.. my brother in arms.. haha.. thanks for teaching me to use back muscle. now still lsightly sore tho.. haha. thanks to Yaz, *again* im begining to pick up the finger tip release.. helps alot in preventing plucking but hurts the finger tip like siao.. hm.. Year 1 orientation cmng up next saturday.. one year passes so fast.. but hey.. got year one to bully liao.. hehe.. no need to keep field already.. hopefully got lotsa chio bu.. =P but better start bucking up for compy.. haiz.. before i sign out.. got smth to say.. ILMLP
*YarMannnn*
Loner, signing outta his lonely diary..

Training today..

2005-05-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Had meeting in the morning wif the sub com dudes and duddettes. we mostly discussed abt the CCA week and orientation. Ahmad spearheaded the meeting cos "tua tao" in japan. as usual, minutes taken by moi. but thanks to ahmad, i dun have to type it out in soft copy format.. ^.^|| heh.. i know i lazy lar.. anywayz after that we wanted to shoot. but bloody SPSU using the field for one more of their lame orientation camps. went to have a sumptious lunch at Pizza hut. after which, we headed back to the club house to get our stuff, preparing to shoot down those SPSU buggers if they didnt clear the field by the time we got there. luckly they were gone, and we carried on our trial shoot. sighted for a few ends b4 carrying out the actual thing. Somehow, i managed to get first with a score of 121 for 6 ends, 3 arrows each. diaoz... the Gods must be crazy.. haha.. hopefully i'll be able to make it for competition this june 18 and 19. *cross fingers*
When the rain proved to be too much of a hinderance, we kept the field and headed back to club house to slack.. hm.. gg on a holiday at the end of my poly life wif u peeps is smth ill be honoured to do. bern and sze got hold of some helium ballons for us. had a crazy time wif those. sounded like donald duck with constipation.. haha.. Bk's voice change was the best.. totally different frm wad we expected. my first time with helium was a fun expirence.. hope to come across that stuff again soon... haha.

These Few Days....

2005-05-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Bah... been too boring these few days.. i miss school.. luckily i have my archery frens and her to help kill the extra time. been slacking alot recently.. better start going for training if i wanna make it for the next competition. been spending my time cooking, and thinking of new recipies to impress myself and her. and most of the time, these creations turn out to be super good! haha.. take the spaghetti bolognese i made.. i was afraid of making it cos it was my first time making a tomato based sauce pasta.. but abit of my mum's help, i pulled it off perfectly.. ahhaha.. one of the best pasta dishes i made.. well, things are pretty smooth sailing for her and me now.. Thank God for that. i love her. tts all i can say. i decided not to get crazy over the slightest things. no more shouting and raising my voice. the time spent with me shall be peaceful and relaxing. no more stress and no more anger. Love ya girl, and i'll be right here waiting for you... =P
This is a Loner, signin outta his diary.

Fustrated..

2005-05-03T07:34:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
wad am i to think? wad am i to do? im lost right now, and looking for directions as to whats the correct thing to do... haiz.. results coming on the 5 of may.. dont think ill be bothered wif them tho.. too much on my mind.. its making me sick and its causing me so much more agony than i can handle.. much more than i have ever known in my life.. i wish and hope all of this will pass soon... this is a loner, signing outta his crummy diary..

Feelin's

2005-04-12T09:48:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
this has got to be the most amnt of times i blogged.. 2 days in a row.. but cant help it.. i only blog when smth troulign me, and i must say this thing has been troubling me more than i can take it. Maturity? how long does it take for a person to reach maturity? i know u can be 18 with the mindset of a 3 year old. or vice versa. but still, is it a mere excuse to say: 'No, i am not interested in you. Get out of my life.' cos if it is, i rather take the harsh truth of life and live with it with a pinch of salt. Dont lie to me, cos it will be the last thing i do. thus i hope u will do the same.. after all, To love you means to ensure ur life long happiness. if it means with another guy, then so be it. i am prepared to let u go. 'Love comes in many forms. And i choose the hardest. Freedom.' Frankly, im perfectly ok with waiting. Just make me feel that all this waiting is worth something. It's tearing me in the inside whenever i see couples on the streets.. Or when my friends get to taste the sweetness in their own patch of heaven. And all i can do is stand aside and wish them the best, thinking when wud be my turn to taste the sweetness of this elusive thing called 'Love'.
I will wait Girl. I will wait. I pray that by doing so, one day i can look back and laugh at my silly self, for even doubting my everlasting love towards u. and at that time, i hope i'll have a time machine to go back to pass a message to myself, telling myself 3 words. "It's worth it"
This is a loner, signing outta his lonely diary =|

Question marks.

2005-04-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

A Loner's Diary
Hm, now i finished exams le!!! yeah!!! so cool.. now got 7 weeks of free time heh.. getting a bit bored, so i drew up smth to help make my time worth. it's called "Operation: 6 Pack" =P hopefully by the time the hols end, ill be able to get wad i want.. Holidays is the ebst time to train up for archery, so i guess im going for every trng session this hols. must train up for next competition!!! haha.. bought Band Of Brothers VCD also.. cool show.. must watch again.. but all that isnt the main purpose for the blog at hand.. i Dont know what girls want. well, i dont know wad MY girl wants. Heck, thats not even the right termology to use.. shes not even my girlfren yet. i wish and pine everyday, but it all ends up with nothing. am i that bad as a guy? i guess i am... im hopelessly in love with someone, yet i want to do something about it. i want her to be my girl, to be there for her in everything. not just being mere friends. every time she mentions us being friends, my heart drops a million miles.. Argh.. its like a my wake up slap.. to bring me back to reality that we're mere friends. i wonder everyday why she doesnt want me. am i too fat? too obnoxious? or am i just plain too stupid for a person of such high caliber? my exams are over. but w/o this question being answered, i dont think the weight in my heart can ever be shifted.. maybe its my mood swings.. the way i've treated her the past week or so.. My exams period dear!! im sorry for treatin u like dirt and giving u the cold shoulder!!! i know im jealous when u go out with other guys! im sorry for it, and i swear ill try to change it.. argh!!! better stop thinking and go take a panodol.. damn headache acting up again..
This is a loner, signing outta his lonely diary. =(

UpDatezz 2

2005-03-22T08:40:00.000-08:00

A Loner's Diary
*Blows dust...* heh.. back.. to blog again.. much has happened since CNY, so here i am to refresh my memory on wad has happened so far..
1) CNY
hm.. not much happened during the CNY period.. as i said.. my feeling was correct.. wasnt really any qi fen during that time.. just went to visit relatives.. and say hi, collect ang pow, talk to them, and then leave.. sigh.. must be the exams.. cos after everyday of visiting.. i went home straight to study.... my CNY week was practically used for studying.. oh yeah.. all my relatives said i slimmed down alot.. ^.^

2)Mid Semester Tests
Well, as the title suggests, they were just tests, but with proper studying.. i guess i did fairly well for all the test.. =P was pretty stressed out during that time.. and yelled and raised my voice quite a number of times.. fells kinda silly now looking back.. shldnt haven done that. especially when i got angry with her.. haiz..

3)Archery
Archery rocks!! managed to get into the commitee for it as a assistant secetary(Year 1 only mah). hopefully i will be able to do my best to serve the club.. went for archery compy also on the 13 of march at NUS.. didnt do well, was at the bottom last.. i even managed to skin my arm that day with my bow.. good knows wad happened to my form on that day.. hehe.. finally got assigned my bow and arrows, which i affectionately label them as 'ZF_YS' =P. my 2nd lao puo.. must take care of them.. another compy in may.. hopefully ill be ready by then... mus Win trophy!!! haha..

4)My B'day
Turning 18 aint no small matter... its a giant leap frm child to man... frm immature to maturity.. frm.. yeah sure wadever.. had a great b'day party went swimming in the afternoon with Yisi.. boy.. she looked great in her costume we swam for abt 2 hrs in the hot sun which felt great... the feeling of having her to swim next to me was exhilirating.its unlike any other swimming expierence i had ...Had steamboat with a couple of friends. the food was excellent.. the soup frm boiling all the beef and extra ingrediants was super tasty.. and the chicken rice my mum made was outta this world. Yisi was there too.. she made so much difference to this special day of mine. had great fun.. after blowing the candle on the cake, they actually used to cream and smeared it on my face... but i did have my revenge.. hehe.. i returned the favour, and she got most of it haha.. we ended with cream in my hair and face, and it took me a solid 20 mins to get it all off.. haha. of course, wads a 18 b'day w/o liquor!! =) went to cheers to get some drinks like mudshake vodka.. wonderful stuff, but still cannot compare to the more solid heinekin.. ahha.. ever tried drinking beer under the stars and the moon in a swing? if u havent, i highly reccomend it.. it bring new heights to drinking alcohol.. the feeling is magic...

5)New Interests.
well, even though its only like a couple of months plus.. i recetly picked up jogging.. and sad to say, its getting kinda addictive.. especially long distance ones.. hehe.. i swear im gonna run machritchie during the hols.. make up for all the years in cat high when i got last place in school.. =( and swimming also seems like a good excercise to venture in... gets me a good tan too.. haha.. Archery wouldnt really be a 'new' intrest, but ill refer to it as a new passion. and something that has grown more than a passion wud be how i feel for her. its been four months, but instead of diminishing, i feel wad i feel fo her actually grows with each passing day. but wads to be done? >_< as for my new found interests, must bring down my weight to 63!!!! must must must!! heh..

Alrighty then.. kinda late.. gotta tuck myself into bed.. and until the next couple or months, this is a loner, signing outta his loner's diary. ;)

Recent Update

2005-01-26T06:39:00.000-08:00

A Loner's Diary
Wah.. been a while since i updated this blog.. muz be covered by cob webs by now heh.. leme see.. wad has happened so far? oh yah..
1) Went to watch the match between SG and Indo.. SG won!! yeah!!
its also very much different from watching on at home.. u dont tend to be in the match, and i tell you.. the crowds reactions is hilarious.. the atmosphere and hype is totally different, and one HAS to witness one to truly understand the true meaning of Soccer.

2)Went to East Coast beach on hari raya Haji.. to bring my dog to the beach.. haha.. was damn fun.. my dog eventually managed to swim to us in the sea from shore... took a long process, but seeing him waddling in the sea was worth it... hehe

3)School has been pretty ok so far. just finding it slightly hard to catch up with what the cher is saying.. but besides that, its been pretty fun.. 2 more weeks to term break!!!! Damn time flies...

4) POLY 50!!!!! Wah... this one was by far the most "hiong" thing in this month.... ArcheryRocks! even tho we got DQ, we still made it within 2 hrs! first time in history our club using legs instead of hands sia.. haha.. 50 rounds of 600m... piangz.. couldnt believe it when i finished the whole thing.. was ultimately shagged in the end, but the expierence was damn well worthed it.. POLY 50 2006 here i come! hehe.. oh yah.. i forgot.. someone nearly died-ed becoz of me.. heh.. if ur reading this, sorry wor! =( but thanks for ur concern still.. u touched me heart.. =')

5)AUTOCAD SUCKS! well, not the module... but my Lecturer to be exact.. he wouldnt be passing by my tiny piece of heaven here, so might as well forget abt writing down my tots abt him here... basket lecturer.. haiz betta save my breath...

6) Chinese New Year.. hm, dunno why, but this year like no mood sia... no "qi fen".. funny... maybe cause of school? or maybe its because my exams are after my one week break which so "coincidentally" falls on the CNY week... Yeah.. i think thats the reason...

Until the next post, or until im feelin super bored, This is a Loner, Signing outta his Loner's diary!

2004---2005

2005-01-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

A Loner's Diary
2004 had been an amazing year. too amazing to the fact that it passed too fast for me to comprehend. everything seemed like a blur and like one second after counting down to 2004, here i am in 2005 already. but it was a very fun year. and as i like to call, my year of changes. COME! let me bore all of those reading my blog to my chronological listing of 2004!

January- didnt go anywhere, prelims sucked. stuck at home gaming 24/7 haha..

Febuary- didnt do anything also. but parent's chicken rice shop opened. went down to help almost everyday haha.. had fun being a cashier. and learning the ways of being a hawker.. haha. went to Bintan for the CNY celebrations.

March- Release of O level results... piangz.. kena made fun by my form teacher.. gave me a heart attack before giving me my results. 14 pts. upcoming appeals to many JCs after receiving posting to SP. got into SRJC, but didnt like it, managed to get into TPJC the same day thru choir. Gaming improved, joined my First online clan [BoB]

April-Start of Term in TPJC. 04S28 rox! haha crazy, fun class that really made me a betta and more open person. Thank God for that class. Intense choir prac. for concert in May. entitled " Crossing Borders ". Got to bond more with the class. Made great frens, made a close fren. Aidah.

May-More crazy crazy practices for the choir concert. Pracs drag to 8 in the night. ki siao... and finally the day arrives. Wonderful performance by the choir and the Band! endless crap for hours on end with my class. and more boring lectures. made decision to go poly instead.

June-TPJC term ends with a Dragon Boating comp. had extreme fun with the class in Kallang. slack till july. started to make more "bold" moves to her.. haha..

July- Started Poly. Met with DME/1A/01. another crappy class. haha..amazing people, amazing personalities. had fun knowing them, cant say the same for them hehe... Joined tennis and archery outta interest. and had fun doing both sports. still in the clubs mentioned. Broke my 17 year legacy of not doing any sports. Weight Drops massively(hehe).

August --- November Joined my Church's Baptism class. Completed my First Half of Poly. mediocre results. My Church's Huge project " Yin Yue Bu Dao Hui" finishes, thoroughly enjoyed it. i get my HEAD raquet. preps for my trip to EUROPE!

December- the end of my year. First half in Europe. i spent it in France, Switzerland, Italy and Hungary. With God's Grace, She managed to come along with her family. With God's Grace again, i admitted my feelings to her. thankfully, she didnt reject me on the spot. =) Then, i just decided to give her more time. her A's were next year anyway, and i didnt want to be a major hinderance or distraction to her in that crucial year. X''mas comes. and im glad i got to spend it with her, having a X'mas dinner at seoul Garden, giving her my xmas present. one week later, 2004 comes to an end. and my chapter closes for this wonderful, magical and undescribeable year. ENYS, I love Ya... =P

A Loner's Diary

2004-12-26T07:19:00.000-08:00

A Loner's Diary
heres my most recent post: MERRY XMAS TO ALL!!!! wahaha had a great christmas.. wonderful christmas eve, and even betta after christmas celebrations. had Brunch with her at seoul garden and gave her my xmas gifts.. haha.. then went to church for a candle light service at night.. after which was commuone service.. then thats where the fun began... after service.. me and a grp of frens went down to east coast to spend a lil time by the beach.. had great fun sculpting sand.. we ended up gg back at 5am... kaoz... and i only had 4 hrs of sleep only the previous day sia.. haha..

Back to school...

2004-12-15T03:55:00.000-08:00

A Loner's Diary
damn.. back to the old drawing board.. school's been ok so far.. except for all my new subs.. Christ.. all the notes are bloody thick and i return home each day with ever more notes in my bag.. other than that, the hours are super long.. i have 2 days ending at 5, 1 day at 6 (CCA) and 3 mornings starting at 8.. feeling tired already.. this is insane.. haha but other than that, school's been fun.. missed my friends and their endless crappin... :)

Guess who's back.. back again...

2004-12-11T05:43:00.000-08:00

WASSAP!!!! back from europe.. gotta say it was everything far from eventful.. did so many things in my life that i couldnt even imagine i would. went to italy, austria, switzerland and france. i saw the alps of switzerland, the tower of pisa and the effiel tower. weather was awfully cold.. but the sights that went into my retina was worth it.. even though these sights were fantastic, the culture and people of the countries impressed me more.. the people were different and the culture there was far from our eastern origins.. would u mind paying 3 Euros for a toilet trip? lol.. the people there dont..

Last post for A While....

2004-11-27T19:00:00.000-08:00

woot.. leaving the country tml at 2300 hrs.. gonna miss the food here haha...going to tour Europe and see some legendary icons of the world.. ill see if i can post any pictures here frm europe, provided my hotel has some form of internet access haha.. been busy today, packing and charging batteries for the camera... its only 7Pm and i have half a mind to go sleep.. haha...

Rainy Day

2004-11-23T03:17:00.000-08:00

woot. had a fun day today. went out in the morning and came only in the early evening. went out with aidah and melvyn today to watch The Incredibles. wonderful show. funny and at the same time very family orientated. after that we decided to have lunch but the KFC outlet at cineleisure didnt have anymore tomyam chicken. we went to taka instead which we finally managed to dine. walked hell lot after that. window shopping frm taka to lucky plaza to herren. we were drenched walking frm one place to another but we had a fun time. settled for coffee b4 leaving for home. Their new caramel Coffee is wonderful... best thing for such a cold day.

Magical Meaningful Beautiful Night

2004-11-20T12:48:00.000-08:00

Had a wonderful time tonight. the crowd was so intot he songs that we sang. i had a great time singing them too. it was spectecular. every single breath i took, i tured them into notes to praise the lord. im glad i could be given a chance to praise the lord and bring more believers to him. it was also a great chance to bond with my choir mates. had a great night tonight. Enuff said.

2004-11-15T04:46:00.000-08:00

Latest entry: been bored these few days... therefore nuthing to write in me blog.. haha.. its really gaming, eating sleeping and the occasional dose of sports! haha.. choir performance this friday and saturday.. more rehersals coming up back to back... this is gonna be one busy week... but hey, i look foward to it cause its gonna be 2 meaningful nights. and i hope i can do my best for the Lord on both nights. oh yeah, one last thing, IM GOING TO EUROPE BABY!!! WASSA!!!!

Bored boring bored bored.....

2004-11-07T08:00:00.000-08:00

exams may have ended.. but dang man.. im bored.. crazy eh? always anticipating the hols, and when it comes.. u complain its boring.. ahaha... somehow miss school.. SOMEHOW.. guess its just the company of me class mates...haha.. going nuts staying at home 24/7.. thank God ill be able to excercise this tuesday with my ex-Sec school frens... 3 more weeks and im outta this country!! wahaha.. cant wait for it..
Before i end.. i gotta say. im happy Bush won.. no matter wad others say, i think his actions are pretty justified.. many ppl say he shldnt attack iraq, but hey, at least u dont see anymore lame dictators shooting guns in military parades now! no more suppression, but instead people being able to receive Democracy...

EXAMS???? WAD EXAMS???

2004-11-06T02:35:00.000-08:00

OVER!!! ITS GONE!!!! woot! finally.. all the test and exams are but a thing of the past, a distant memory... tho i must say c prog was some sort of a killer..haha but who cares? its over!! time to slack.. haha.. but i know i'll be realt bored soon.. gotta find summat to do soon.. or else.. ill be bored to death stuck at home 24/7.. betta get outta this couch and start excersising!!!

Problem solved?

2004-11-01T12:51:00.000-08:00

well, looks like im gonna have to attend both at the same time. class until 9 for baptism, then chior practice until 930. i sure hope this is gonna work out.. besides that, im still slacking (hehe).. but gotta start work soon. C prog isnt exactly my best sub.. gotta start working on it.. maybe bringing additional help wouldnt hurt... hm... =]

2 down, 1 to go

2004-10-29T02:35:00.000-07:00

went back to college today.. glad to know that my frens did fairly well and most that put in effort were promotable.. went back also to see all ma frens in 04S28.. terrific ppl.. i sure missed them.. glad to say they all remembered me too! =] interacted with all of them and most of the chior peeps too.. glad to know they're all alright. E Tech paper was fairly ok today.. considering i didnt study much for it =P C prog would be next but i got one week to get ready for this final hurdle till then.. ITS PARTY TIME!! COWABUNGA!!

Stuck.. Fustrated..

2004-10-28T00:37:00.000-07:00

oh man.... wad am i gonna do... choir performance rehersals and baptism class clashes and its only possible to be there for one... going for 2 is outta the question. i dun wanna miss too many things at both sides.. haiz... wad am i gonna do.... other than that.. its a good day.. Darn.. cant u book a chalet despite being 17? sheesh *rolls eyes*